Sunday, November 14, 2010

Child, please find a new job soon!

Hai fellas (for you who care enough to read this)...

Being unemployed really distract my diet. By I say diet, it means my appetite. Eventhough it was in Ramadhan -where you should have lost ur weight after it's over-, my appetite was went like VERTICALLY increased (unstoppable, irresistible and unbelievable appetite). So,despite of my unlucky luck in job-searchings, I try to keep my appetite forgettable by crocheting, but...everytime I got strangled with yarn skeins in my hands, my father always looked at me and gave me the "Please get a job soon, dear daughter!!!" LOL. Well daddy, I tried. Really.

Here's d story...
So before Ramadhan came, I got sick for about 2 months (thanx to my gastric-acid problem). I wasnt able to attend few interviews, three really prospect interviews (can you imagine). There was one day when I got better and started eat normally, I try to find another job. While I was waiting for the interview call I spent my day with crocheting. Day by day, the phone call I've waited never rang that's when I decided to stop awhile and trying my  new crocheting project. Then I really got stucked with a new project in making baby shoes. My father came to me and said "Have you applied to ANY company?" As like he said it with a curious face. I answered lightly "I have, to a few companies." Then he seemed relieved. I felt really awful because I know for sure, he'd like me to apply for Ministry of Foreign Affairs (KEMLU) but he never said it straight to me. Then I thought maybe this is my chance, my way, cos I've got no job afterall. So, I said "Dad, what do you think if I try Kemlu (Kementrian Luar Negeri)?" Daddy seemed really happy of course (I knew it from his face and his hidden smile). I went to Jakarta for a bout a month later, I felt really nervous when I started to read the test quetions. Ffiiuhh!!!

Thankfully I made it through my first test. I couldnt say thanks enough to God. I went back again for the next test which unfortunately I failed it successfully. I really hate my self that time, then I think again that everything sweet wouldnt come smoothly. Im still in my emotional recovery right now ('emotionally' for being failed the test not in a romantic mean). So, I just wanna share this to you guys. Sometimes we fall very hard, but then again if you managed to stand up again, you will have enough strength to change the world (please dont puke.). What world? well that depend... ;)

The point is Rough journey always needed to score any GOAL. (that's me being wise-a*s).

Thursday, November 11, 2010

-My Sister’s Keeper- By: Jodi Picoult

Book Reference: My Sister’s Keeper

By: Jodi Picoult



The book was about a girl named Anna, who was trying to have a total control of her own body. The story began from how Anna was conceived and what was her purpose to life. It turns out to be that she was born for saving her sister’s life.

Anna had to sue her parents because they always ask her help when her sister had collapsed in the hospital. And that’s not it; in her journey for having this run she had conflict with her own heart, her relationship with her family also in jeopardy.

There are times when you can put smile in your face while read this book, and also tears for the touching moments. What I can say about this book is I enjoy it when I read it and I guess you would to.

The book also adapted into screening movie, but the content is totally different. If you had watched it and enjoyed it then you should read the book, which is more details, more touching, and more twisted than you ever imagine.

Reading this book could really make you grateful for your normal and healthy life unlike Kate, Anna’s sister, who has had cancer since she was two. The book teaches us how to appreciate our family and how to love them in a just way.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

The Critiques are Lame, Really

Somehow, I had found myself as a total loser in life. But then I think again, well maybe it just YOU whom crossed the line of others life!!! blahhh!!!


I am who I am and you better shut it if you think you can tell so much bout me! Cos no one can and I prefer it stays that way!!! Shoo...
-25 year old grown up woman without settled job. God really not being cooperated with all  my prayers lately, well I dont know, maybe I deserved it or maybe I'll get another 'answer' someday. But I was this close (picture me showing you the tiniest measure of my fingers), very close but again I failed it (If u r my bestfriends, u know!). Sometimes I really want to shout this out "Atleast please God give me one thing... I dont know, one thing to make me feel that Im worth it, that I really loved by You." but then again that won't work, cos God is The Boss, well atleast for me. Well this feeling really chopped me up and torn me apart (hyperbola, I know) til I heard something on TV "sometimes God tests us to raise our dignity before Him (this is my own language style, I dont know what is the correct English or the proper one for Quran's Words)".
*Sigh*
I try my best to be patient, (again...) and hoping that someday everything will be just fine.
The most irritating thing is there are a lot of people talking S**t about my life, Why I havent got a job and creepy stuff like that. Ewww, they dont even know me exactly, I mean they dont even know what time I wake up (Oh yes u'll be surprised if u do!!!), what my middle name is, what am I good at and even what I've done to draw-all-of-the-chance to get hired. Believe me, I do everything I could and legal, of course. Crap! I applied for administration, teacher, assistant teacher, writer or copywriter (I want this one so bad!), all of the-non-experience and from-all-major job vacancies...but once again just not my luck. So now Im just gonna wait, cos I've been doing my best so let THE BOSS do the rest.

-The 'L word' havent touched me yet. Well this is serious since im already 25 going to 26 and the clock is ticking and i havent even start anything at all. Zero, Na-da, Perfectly None! It's like u're on your college age for now, but unfortunately you've only reached junior high school, so much to catch up... And since im a poet (unpublished one), Drama movies lover, Romance comedy series believer, and addicted to love songs well that means like I'm a romantic person, and that makes it more miserable!
*Sigh*
All people said about look. Once again about look. what's good, what's bad. What's hot, what's not. What's happening, what's embarrassing, etc... Do they even know that people like us do try!!! People with no experience in love life always try to be atleast keen and neat, smiling always, well maintained and also groomed pretty good. But once again it happens to be my story... Well you're not expecting me to say about my weight right? (please be dreaming!) Cos from I know of, people with flabbiness also can be happy with their couple.
It's really complicated actually when people start talking behind your back and try to bring you down because of what your lackness, because of your monthly salary, because of your lonesome, because of what they think is right should be your parameter too. Well u know what they can really kiss dog's ass bcos I wont buy their trash talks anymore. Only the worse is my parents feeling, have they ever think about it before they throw a knive at you??? Dont think so. Well this all go to my relatives for their sick minds and their huge flabby lies!!! Such a lousy full of critiques hypocrites! Please be silent or Buried in Peace!

<3 (God forgives me for being honest) <3

After I read "Good in Bed - By: Jennifer Weiner"









To see my first review go click  I Wasnt Finish Reading Yet!!!

Well.. to finish my first review bout this book, I gotta say that this book is quite something. Because at the end it served us with something that was really touching. By I say touching means it taught us that 'look' is not that important if it comes to anyone's life. Cannie didn't feel like she will be happy again after she found out that her baby was born premature and she's not in a good shape, she was small with wrinkles around her skin and pinkish frail skin. This had taught Cannie that all of her concern about her weight and Bruce (Her Ex-bf) is nothing compare to her baby's life. She had fallen into hole where she couldnt find anyone else to help until Dr. K come. He came to save Cannie from her crumbling live and finally replace Bruce's place in Cannie's heart.

You have to read the book to understand Cannie's character. The book is quite special itself cos of it's funny language. And please mind that it pulished in 2000, so you might have to synchronize a lil bit with the fashion and other trends (cars) back in those days. Actually I read the books online. you can download it from 4shared, but if you dont like to read from pc or notebook, well u should try for book stores. But once again since it published in 2000 u might have a lil trouble with that. :)

The insight of the book is you need to feel comfortable about yourself therefore u'll find ur own beauty. you need to lean on someone's shoulder sometimes to release all the burdens inside, someone that you can trust.