This Is What I Really Want., well Kinda...

"As per tomorrow i'll be an unemployed lady with a silly hobby ever (crocheting). Well it's kinda what I want for now, since I really cant stand for the stagnant salary and i felt like im unchallenged at all, not to mention i cant explore my abilities in this job. Many of friends had said that I should get another one, I could have had job better than this, but this is my first job, thats why i keep it for this 6 months. My first job, it's like my first love..." (blahblahblah)

Well, today (31/08/09) will be my last day in this office. the office was cool actually, with modern atmosphere and deluxe facilitation, it is absolutely providing a conducive environment. Not to mention that it located outside Surabaya (u're gonna need something that really really amusing, such as good toilet!). Well u might say that it is in the middle of industrial jungle, so very hectic and hot!!!


Since few days before, i feel like i have nothing left here. If previously I have a believe that I will make it, well not in past few days. It's like God has opened my mind. That's why I intended to resign after this contract. But God really makes my job easier, the company is letting me go, well i guess it doesnt matter for me, cos the result is still the same. I WONT BE HERE per SEPTEMBER.

Few Reason Why I Should Leave this Company:
1. I have no potential improvement here, no matter how many reply I've got. It's like they just playing me, only ask for prices then left me with an empty hope (hahahaha, very hyperbola!!!)
2. I feel like I can get so much better than this, well Im smart, convident, fast learner and very good in team, not to mention that i live for challenge! (yeah!!! That's why i survived for 24 years of my life!)
3. The Boss words really hurting me, he acted like he is the most generous boss in this world, that's why i feel like i dont have to make me look better in front of him. And perhaps thats why im the one who terminated. Well maybe u should check on our salary, Boss!!! I dont really care anyway!
4. Im just really not into this company anymore.

Nevertheless, i really like this job actually, but not with thesalary... Dude!!! I need more, way MORE!!!Atleast you have to give me a way more fun job with that range. I cant get my french course, I cant shop enough, and I dont even have my own Bank Account.
God, it took 6 months to realize that i'm really not for this company! But i still intended to apply as an export marketing into another company, or maybe a writer!!!

Oh and for the one who rejected me for junior writer position, well u can suck it up!!! Im not from english department, but honey, it took more than just grammar to make a good writings. And we, International Relations under-graduated got more TOEFL score than English Department did!!! (well some of us!) lol... no offense, dear!

Oh and I hate MALAYSIA!!! (this is my blog, so i can say wa'eva i want)

I LOVE HANGING OUT WITH MA BESTFRIENDS!!!

Tomorrow (Sunday, 30/08/09) was very beautiful, cos Im outing with my BESTFRIENDS.
We were doing all d thing we usually do; such as embarassing stuffs, taking a lots of silly pictures with silly poses in it, having dinner and taking pictures at the same time and giggling to each other. It was like we have nothing to worried about.
But Reality bites!!! Within our laughs; giggles; and silly behaviour we got pain inside...OK, maybe I just overrate it! Well it just there is a lil bit of unluck in every each of us as following:

-Dian Ayu Kusuma Dewi, a very angelic look lady got robbed a nite before while ridin' motorcyle with her colleague. She lost 3 cellphone, wallet, ATM, ID CARD, and her braveness to tell her mom the truth. Owh, hunny... :(

-Abelito Yudha Perwira, a very cute as hell babyboy has just resigned from his job since few days ago, and UNTIL NOW havent got his last salary inside his account!Shitty Situation it is!! Maybe U Should date ur Boss, yudh... L.O.L :))))

-Bayuseta Jati, the one with the biggest salary for an entry level and an angelic eyelashes(n for that u're a bitch...), feels like he doesnt like his job! Yeah, it is shitty too since you need to FEEL ur job!

-Ayu Laras Sari, an in love lady... Well she got nothing to sorry about, since she still got her job even if it's very cruciating (once again, I overrate it...) not to mention that she's in LOVE...merde! :)

-Siti Lathifa, a mommy image lady just got recovered from her illness, may u have a good health always, darling... :)

-Putri Aswari, emmm... I dunno what's her problem really... hahaha :))))) maybe doesnt have facebook is her biggest problem!!!

-Me???, named Prima Adinda Minardi, as per tomorrow i'll be an unemployed lady with a silly hobbies ever (knitting). Well it's kinda what I want for now, since I really cant stand for the stagnan salary and i felt like im unchallenged at all, not to mention i cant explore my abilities into max in this job. Many of friends said that I should get another one, I could have had job better than this, but this is my first job, thats why i keep it for this 6 months. My first job, it's like my first love... i made my first penny from this lousy job-they said. for further story please read above writing... :)

-Tha Absent Friends, Aditya Gusfariyanto, he's been so busy he even absent twice!!!

What Im trying to say here is... I really love my friends, I love to be young, I love to laugh with them. Im not saying that we dont have problems, well we do have problems as i mentioned above, bunch of 'em. But I can make sure that we can still laughs when we meet them and hear their JOKES, even in our breakdown moments!

:)

You're the Setter No One Else

Don't be angry and drowned in sad
Cos no one meant to be led
Find your path and grip your grid
Cos everyone meant to LEAD

Don't be happy yet satisfied
You haven't done well if it just 'alright'
Be the best for yourself
You're the SETTER no one else!

Tanpa Judul (Mati)

Tanpa Judul (Mati)


Padahal masih pagi,
dia sudah bermimpi untuk mati.
Pura-pura saja dia bahagia,
didalam banyak derita.
Jika mati memang tujuannya,
maka biarlah sekali ini saja dalam hidupnya,
dia mampu raih mimpinya.


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Dead

It was still early really

He dreamed to die already

All it is only the pretence of happy

Inside, only misery

If dead is what he aimed to

Then let him have it, though

It will be his first wish ever comes true 

Can't Say

I'm a poet
I could say about anything
I could say about pain
I could say about sad
I could say about cheer
I even could say about Love...

I wonder why...
Why I'm wordless bout you?

SEPI

Sepi

Bangunkan aku saat fajar pergi,
Saat semua orang terlelap,
Dan saat dunia beristirahat.

Hingga bisa kulupakan
Betapa sunyinya aku diantara keramaian,
Betapa sampahnya aku diantara kehidupan

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Deserted

Wake me up when the dawn has left

When everyone fallen for sleep

And the world in resting

So I can aside for awhile

Aside how muted I am in crowd

Aside how useless my existence between lives

If You Ever

If you ever leave my heart

please shut the door and lock it down

cos while you're gone

I don't want to be found

Practically Insane

I'm practically insane...

Sipping on an empty hope

Swallowing an empty dream

Wandering in an empty thought

Tempted in an empty lust


I'm practically insane !

IF

Well...

If I'm to fall, I'd fall only for you

If I'm to lost, I'd lost only with you

If I'm to be broken, I'd be broken protecting you

If I am to die, I'd die saving you

LIGHT

I found shelter
Deep inside your eyes
I am better
Just to find you by myside
Just hold me tight
Never let go
Please stay and be my light...

No One But You

And when I fall
I want no one to help me...
I want no one to save me...
but you

And when I lost
I want no one to find me...
I want no one to guide me...
but you

And when I broken
I want no one to heal me...
I want no one to hug me...
but you

The Wings of Love

Without anytime I will get you 

Just arrange your words and say you love me too
Wherever you are
Whatever you do
I will always be there even if it's only in my mind
Cos my wings of love
Will be there for you

He's Gone

While I'm burning with this new love
He walked away from me
I try to stop him, but the resistance is absolute!

Stop Acting Like You Care!!!

Well as u know my frens, i got this hectic and heavy situation. And yesterday at night surf on Facebook, i had this chat with one of my fren, well 'another' friend! (the one that never text you, never say hello and never know bout your life, cos... they just do not exist, actually!)

And the jerk said something that could make you vomit and laugh to cry at the same time!! Dude, who the FUCK are YOU??? U dont even know me and my family, ASSie!! He said that as the eldest daughter i should taking care of my family, I have to be there for them, I have to cheer up my mom when she is sad, I have to support my family as my best!!!
DUH!!! U such an asshole, u dont even know me, u just one sick bastard, the most hypocrite person i've ever know!!! Dont u just talk about shit, assie!!!

Now tell me what would you've done if u were me??? Cos I done nothing, i just said 'thanx'!!

YES, I'M AN ASS!!! I hate myself!!!

HAHAHAHA!!! F-ing FUNNY STORIES!!

Nah, ini ada beberapa cerita dari beberapa sumber. Kesamaan dari cerita-cerita tsb adalah mereka masing2 grogi ato gugup dalam menghadapi situasi saat itu. Nmun di akhir crita anda yang menentukan apakah mereka grogi ato mereka BNR2 bodoh!! Well, read this then you tell me!!!

1. Kisah pertama:

So, adeku punya temen dan si temen ini punya kakak. karena kakaknya lumayan cantik maka dia ditaksir ama banyak orang. Tadinya nih kaka pretty pilih2 ma orang yang ngajakin dia kluar. Nah, saat ada satu org cowok dengan etnis Madura (bukan bermaksud rasial/etnisitas, this identity reveal really needed to make this story funnier!). Nah, sekali lagi karena kaka pretty ini ditaksir mas2 madura dia gak brani nolak karena takut digorok (skali lagi, yang merasa marah, then prove to us that these stereotype was wrong!! (",).

Ktakutan pun berujung pada maunya si mbak cantik diajak ngemaal. Sesampainya di Mall mbak pun seneng karena dibeliin banyak barang di department store retail named MATAHARI, akhirnya si mbak agak terkesima dong, uda tampang lumayan manis loyal pula...

Saat ngantri di kasir, si mbak agak sumringah dan gak sabar untuk nunggu kisah 'belanja' berikutnya, setelah sampe meja kasir,

mbak2 kasir nanya: ada kartu matahari? (si cewek mesem-mesem aje, uda dapet sandal plus baju)

Mas: gak ada.

Mbak kasir: Ok

Mas: em kalo kartu Simpati? SAYA PAKE' SIMPATI

ANNNNJJJRIIIITTTTTTTTT!!!

Dalam hati mbak cantik berang dan bersumpah nggak akan jalan ama cowok ini lagi. Now u decide, is he nervous or he's just STUPID???

Kisah Kedua:

Ini dari aku sendiri, saat itu gw ada intvw di salah satu persh. seluler di Indonesia, nah karena uda intvw kedua dan ini intvw job pertama gw, so pasti gw berusaha seasyik dan se-gaul mungkin jadi orang. Namun semua itu justru menjerumuskan pada gagalnya intv,

Paknya: Kamu bisa sebutkan kekuaranganmu apa?

GW: (jangan harap aku bilang 'kekurangan saya gendut' IT WOULD ONLY HAPPEN IN a ZILLION YEAR FURTHER!!) Otomatis aku jawab, oh aku orangnya moody

Paknya: Ok, kayak gimana tuh?

GW: yah contohnya kayak gini PAS adek saya NGGARAIN saya, saya marah gitu. apalagi PAS saya lagi ngerjain skripsi. kan MANGKEL tuh!!

Yup, usah yang terlalu dipaksakan membuahkan gw masuk dalam kategori ndueso!!! dan yup I didnt get the job!!

Now tell me, was i stupid or just nervous??

Jennifer Aniston and John Mayer Broke-Up???

Berhubung aku sedang mencapai tingkat stagnan di kantor dan nggak tau lagi mesti ngapain, maka gw mutusin untuk menghibur diri dengan gosip2 terbaru artis hollywood. Meskipun nggak se-skandal Saiful Jamil dan Kiki Fatmala yang prekes2an pantat, namun yah quite entertain, or should i say, SAD!! The sweet person like Jennifer havent found her soulmate in her 40 years old life? Well, she's nice, funny, and smart, duh! who doesnt want her???

Seperti yang tertulis di salah satu blog E! Online magazine,,, terdapat kabar bahwa Jennifer Aniston dan John Mayer broke-up. Meskipun pasangan yang terkenal seringkali putus-nyambung ini dikabarkan bubar, namun berita terbaru sangatlah mengagetkan!!! (Sok KenaL)
Gini nih berita selengkapnya, in Bahasa of course!!!

Jadi setelah mbak Aniston ini balik dari promo film terbaru yang di Indonesia DVD bajakannya gak ori2 (Marley and Me) ini nyampe ke State minggu kemaren. Ada salah satu Source yang mengatakan, "Dia putus dengannya saat Aniston kembali dari tour Eropa-nya". Jubir Aniston belum berkomentar apa2, sedangkan jubir Mayer memutuskan untuk menghindari membicarakan kehidupan pribadi Mayer.

Apa Kata Gank keduany???

Seorang kawan mereka mengatakan bahwa seharusnya tidak secepat itu diambil kesimpulan bahwa mereka putus selamanya. karena seperti yang tlah diketahui, kabar ini bukanlah kali pertama mereka 'terpisah'.

Namun fakta lain mengatakan...
Aniston baru2 ini membuka ttg kehidupan pribadi dan cintanya pada majalah UK, YOU. "Siapa yang bilang kalo smua hubungan harus untuk selamanya? That's hoping too much," Kata Aniston. "I think every relationship is a world unto itself." Sedangkan saat ditanya tentang menemukan partner sejati, mbak Aniston menjawab, "I don't have one and I ont think it exists" (Very sad it is, these words come from her lips, the one whose always teach us about love in her movies!!).

Aniston dan Mayer pertama kali mempublikasikan kisah mereka pada akhir bulan lalu at the OSCAR. Saat di backstage KODAK, Aniston mengatakan pada Gayle King (u/ Oprah's Show) bahwa dia "very happy." Kemudian, malamnya mereka bergandengan tangan di acara post-show party.

Akhir2 ini Aniston ditemukan di hotel yang sama di Terrace restaurant. Dia akan berangkat ke New York untuk syuting film terbarunya The Baster dengan jason Bateman, sebagai wanita berusia 40 tahun, single dan memutuskan untuk memiliki anak dari sahabatnya sendiri.

Sedangkann Mayer??? he's working on a new album!

(Originally published March 11, 2009 at 8:15 p.m. PT)

HOW PEOPLE THINK??

Yah, sebenernya apa yang bikin orang mikir? Kehidupan yang abis dijalani, kehidupan yang sedang dijalani atau kehidupan yang akan dijalani??

Kalo menurutku nih, dari pandangan sok tahu-ku... pembentukan pikiran orang dibedakan kedalam 3 fase:

Fase pertama fase single:
Fase single ini dijalani oleh seseorang mulai dari remaja sampai kehidupan single-nya berakhir. Pada fase ini manusia hanya memikirkan tentang apa yang sedang dijalani, semuanya tentang fun! hal ini dikarenakan manusia single belum berpikir secara matang akan apa yang dijalaninya dan untuk siapa dia berbuat. Motivasi yang dipikirkan hanya mengenai diri sendiri. Oleh karena itu pemikiran yang terbentuk oleh fase ini adalah pemikiran sempit, cenderung gegabah dan memiliki orientasi singkat.

Fase kedua adalah fase double:
Fase double ini dijalani seseorang yang telah berkeluarga, saat masa - masa ini manusia memikirkan masa depan lebih banyak dari dia memikirkan masa kini. Selalu berusaha menggapai apa yang ada didepan daripada menghargai apa yang sudah didapat. Motivasi yang dipikirkan tidak hanya untuk dia sendiri namun juga untuk keluarga, suami untuk istri; istri untuk suami (dengan 'bonus' anak tentu saja). Pemikiran yang terbentuk oleh fase ini adalah pemikiran yang berorientasi jangka panjang dan lebih bertanggung jawab, namun cenderung kurang melihat apa yang sebenarnya sudah dimiliki. Sifat orientasi kedepan bisa menghasilkan dua keputusan, yaitu keputusan resiko besar dan resiko kecil; keuntungan besar dan kecil; dll dengan menggunakan ukuran tertentu. Bisa dibilang saat fase ini 'angka' adalah segalanya.

fase ketiga adalah fase stagnan:
Fase stagnan bisa terjadi di masa tua, masa remaja, maupun masa dewasa. Fase stagnan ditandai dengan adanya pertanyaan "sebenarnya untuk apa saya hidup". Fase ini membuat manusia menilai dirinya sebagai sesuatu yang kecil dan tidak berguna, meskipun sebenarnya dia memiliki harta melimpah. Fase ini membuat manusia selalu menengok kebelakang, ke masa2 yang dinilai lebih indah dari saat ini, biasanya fase ini disebabkan oleh beberapa traumatis emosional karena ditinggal seseorang yang dicintai; kekecewaan mendalam pada lingkunan sekitar dan kekecewaan mendalam pada diri sendiri.

Nah, setelah baca hal2 diatas, kira2 kamu ada di fase yang mana??

Single/double or stagnan???

What Coffee Could do For You!!

Every morning i always drink a cup of milk coffee, you know... just to bust up my energy and as an effort to keep my eyes open widely. When i'm at the office i always trying my best not to drink coffee, cos hey... you could only drink coffee once a day, and this is for your own health... (this is what i got in mind, hehehe). But then again i wanna see if there is any advantage to drink coffee regularly? and i put myself into somekind of short inquiry, cos i only read from one source (yeah you can find it in Google, off course - i forgot the site!). And what i got is really incredible!!!
here are the things that u could really avoid by consuming this great brew!!
1. bust up ur mood
2. help you more concentrate to your job
3. reduce stress
4. as a medication for a head-ache

USUAL??? TOO COMMON??? READ THESE!!

5. reduce risk of diabetes type 2
6. reduce risk of cancer
7. reduce risk of having a heart attack, and heart problem
8. good for asthma
9. increase athleticivism and mood, helps u tobuild muscles (yeah!!!)
10. COFFEE also have a great antioxidant

Good for your health if u consume coffee in more than 2-3 cups a day (precisely, 6 cups!!)
Yeah, i couldnt believe it also!

Those are the advantages of consuming one of the famous brew in the world... yes, I love Coffee, but i dunno if i have to drink more than 6 cups of coffee per day!!! GOD!

I still cant believe this articles... only FYI this article written professionally from the proven study in some countries... UNBELIEVABLE!!!

Hectic Life as an EXPORT MARKETING

Hello World! I'm back to inform you all my latest news. Well recently as you all might know that i live my new life as an EXPORT MARKETING. Here is the story...

Someday, back from now, when my head was still on pillow and i used to wake up at 11 A.M, someone calls me. She asked me to attend this interview as an EXPORT MARKETING. After the call, I do my own inquiry on what paper I saw the job adv. and my notes. DAMN, ternyata... Kualifikasi: S1, pegalaman min. 1tahun, exp marketing... WOW, this Job Should be WHEWWW... dan waktu pertama kali aku denger wow!!! Me? As a marketing staff? Dude, that girl must be blind!!! As a good friend of my other fellows i asked them advices. Gini advice mereka...

Ayu: Dateng aja din, aku lho ya paling gendut di CS, nyantei aja...
Dian: Dicoba aja cinn, kalo gak cocok ya gak usah diambil..
Bayu: tidak membalas (Saat itu sedang menstruasi, jadi seluruh hidupnya dihabiskan untuk misuh2).
Tifa: Selamat ya...
Yudha: Tidak membalas karena sedang bikini wax bersama boyfren barunya.
DP: tidak membalas karena sibuk skripsian (perhaps...perhaps...perhaps)

Setelah mempertimbangkan akhirnya gw datang juga untuk interview. Lokasinya memang dekat dengan alamat rumah gw, namun jauuuuuuh dari keberadaan kendaraan umum dan peradaban normal lainnya. Pas pertama dateng, gw bener2 gak ngerti konsep nih kantor. Udah letaknya diperumahan, orangnya cuman sedikit, direnovasi pula, didepan terasnya ada kolam nganggur dan dihuni kecebong, calon nyamuk serta lumut, belum lagi penampakan rumah yang lumayan sereeeemm.
"...Jadi Dinda, kita ini perusahaan benang dan sarung tangan, Mitra Saruta Indonesia. Nanti kalo misalnya kamu ketrima kerjanya disini. kira2 kamu tertarik gak?"
"Ya...tertarik..." D-uh...??? bo'ong dong gw pastinya...
"Ok, nanti kalo udah waktunya kamu masuk, saya telfon ya. Selamat Siang" Berhubung Selamat Siang disini berarti 'Get The Fuck Out Of Here' maka gw pulang kerumah.
Beberapa hari kemudian gw dapet panggilan juga. Pas pertama gw masuk, damn semua orang pada sibuk ngadepin komputer masing2, setelah diperkenalkan dan dikasih satu meja gw dikasih tau tugas2nya... dan ini yang bikin gw takjub!!
"Dinda, sebagai export marketing tugasmu nyari customer baru secara online, jadi tugas kamu hanya browsing perusahaan weaving, fabrics dan textile untuk memasarkan benang. Setelah itu kamu kasih mereka introduction letter, bla...bla...bla..."
DAn ke-hectic-an cuman sampai disini, ternyata kerjaan guweh cuman browsing... damn!!! Well I dont know bout another export marketing, but what I do for now, well kinda fun for a job and a little bit boring, not to mention the salary of course...

HANTUUUUUU!!!

Sebenernya ini udah cerita lama. Namun karena aku lagi nganggur jadi akan aku bagi bersama kalian..

Jadi gini, nenekku kan asalnya dari Jogja nih, dan dia waktu itu lagi ke Surabaya. Otomatis kita nggosip kan. Nggosip tentang pacar sepupuku yang mau ke Jepanglah, sepupuku yang jadi susterlah, dan sepupuku yang hamil lagi... nah saat suasana lagi cair2nya nih, mamaku bilang "Gak Onok CritO Setan ta Ma??!" Nah, nenekku akhirnya bilang "Woooo... yo Onok To!" (Bangga ya Buq, daerah rumah berhantu kok bangga!!)... HERE WE GO!

(Berikut cerita nenek saya, yang sudah ditranslate ke bahasa Indonesia..)

Waktu itu ada tetanggaku yang namanya Yanto. Dia kepalanya benjoooollll banget, nah setelah itu, aku (nenekku) tanya, "kmu kenapa? kok bisa dipale Lo ade telornye??". Nah berhubung Nenek guweh termasuk bossgank si Yanto langsung menjawab, "Iya nih, kemaren malem2...(Jadi gak sereeem yaaa)

Pada malam itu, Yanto pulang terlalu larut, saat akan memasuki gang sempit yang menuju kerumahnya, dia mendengar suara bersiul..seorang wanita tampaknya, "Ssssuuuiiitt...sssuuuiitt..". Yanto berusaha mencari asal muasal suara itu namun tidak mampu dia menemukannya...
"MAS...MAS...sssuit..ssuuiitt..." suara itu kembali terdengar, dan beneran ada kata2 'mas'nya... (Hiiii)
Kali ini Yanto mampu menemukan sumber suara, dari atas... dia pun seketikan menengadahkan wajah, ASTAGHFIRULLAHHhh
yang dilihat adalah 'mbak wewi' dengan baju putih, rambut awut2an dan tertawa2 sambil mengoyang2kan kakinya (mind you, ni mbak wewi duduk diatas tambok gang setinggi +/- 8meter, jadi kakinya ngglantung), nah Mas yanto yang mendengar tawa "Hihihihi...ihihihihi (bayangin film2 mbak kunti, yak tepat seperti itu suaranya)" alhirnya lari sampai2 kejedot tiang penunjuk arah...
Begitulah asal mula Benjol di kepala Mas Yanto...

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