My Past Journey

(2008)

As I escaped those nights of cold and weary
You hugged her tight and dearly

As I've always kept our love and vanished the fury
You sank our lovely memory by starting your own story

As I moved on with pain and fierce
You forced me to wipe my tears

The arisen strength as I think of you
will only be my past journey

Back Stabber

(29Oct2008)

You are not the girl I knew before
We used to walk that road together
Now you're just cost me pain for more
And the cuts are going deeper

You knew it well I love him deep
You never mentioned you want him near
You become nightmare in my sleep
I want you leave with all my fear

The Shadow

(16OCT2008)

He kept his darkness for years
Now that it revealed
One has appeared
This one called QUESTION

He used to walk through his own shadow
No one chased him down
One has come
This one known as INSECURE

He was so cheerful
Never taste painful
One has gone
This one said LOVE

His shadow has revealed
His insecure haunts him down
One that gone, that said as love
Left scar in his heart
The shadow needs his light

My Lover is Gone

My lover was here
And I was steered
My Lover is gone
Now I'm facing the ground

I might confuse you or maybe betray you
I just got it back
It hangs around my neck
Only an inch to hack

It is indeed
Love that would kill me
It is indeed
Love that could kill me, make me and save me

Now he's gone
My love is gone, blown by my sin
My love is gone, blown with the wind
My lover is gone
How should I carry on?

Wrong Trail

Wrong Trail

(29/08/2007)

I saw you running

Following, me from behind

Stepping on a cracked trail

Can’t you hear me begging?

I know you, you’re chasing fail

You keep on running

Never heard me shouting

A failure you will be

You should’ve followed me

Now you keep on running and crying at once

Day and Night

Day and Night

When the day breaks
Get outside, you'll see my smile in the sun
And when the night falls,
No matter what I'll stay around

When the sun goes down and the black crawls out
Don't be scared
Because I'll be your sight to guide your path in the dark

TRACE

TRACE

As your heart forever untold
Your love forever on-hold

As your passion forever unspoken
Your desire forever unmoaned

As the emptiness is yours
Your life is the cost
Your existance leaves no trace
Indeed what you will face

Burden's Lighter

Burden's Lighter

When the smile of your face fades away
Remind yourself of your sadness
Then you'll smile again

When your eyes see with emptiness
Remind yourself of all your happiness
Then you'll see with joy

When you remember your pain to empathize better
And remember your joy to smile brighter
You just won your burden's lighter

Today

Today

Yesterday I woke up in pale
My soul partly disappeared
My breakfast was pain
The coffee was drain

Today I feel sadly in vain
Empty it is only I can hear
I wrap my other parts in shield
Cover my secrets with filth

Tomorrow I would still smell your lies
Crush my day to curse your vanish
Hoping that someday
You will be gone in blemish

What a miracle

What a Miracle

What a miracle
The sun shines so bright
The ocean brings the lives
The wind breezes our hearts

What a miracle
I can see sun in your eyes
I feel the ocean in your smile
and I breathe the breeze by your side

Heaven

I'm in heaven
No more word that spoken
Not the other person
Yours to me, mine to you

Young Love

Boy. Boy. Boy.
You're so unpredictable
You even kissed me on my table
Maybe you had found me usable

Boy. Boy. Boy.
You didn't even stay with me
You didn't even love me
But you could rise curious out of me

Boy. Boy. Boy.
So much memories to be shared
but then again, darling
It was never love that flared

Drug Store

 (31-08-2007)

Friends are like Drug store. 

They provide:
The liquid to ease cough caused by handsomeness
The ointment to cover scars caused by scratching truth
The pills to ease irritation caused by lies
The band-aid to collect yourself up after shattered by love


Thanx friends for healing us up.

Roller Coaster

Roller Coaster

You're higher than my mind could take me
Faster than my thought could ever be
Scary. Scary. Scary.

I grip on what I can hold
My breath paused without being told
Suddenly, I'm no longer sad
I should get another ticket

I'm Not Leaving

-I'm Not Leaving- (Jan2011)

The cool breezes
Take me to the valley
Where the streams
Lead us straight to heavenly alley

The delightful sounds,
whispering magics
This happiest happiness
Filling my feeling

Sorrow and loneliness
They had my good bye kiss
Definitely,
I'm not leaving

Everytime I Swear

-1998-

Without anytime
I will get you
Just arrange your words
And say you love me too

Could you give me some love
For just a moment
'Cos there's none reason
To make me different

There's no day without you
There's no word that I can say too
Just please forgive me, oh baby, I do
I really miss you cos my love so true

Jake

-Jake*-

On the other street
I found a sheet
Full of the beat
Only meant to heat
Someone who believes

Jake may lost his sheet
Full of his beat
But he relieved
knew that it would heat
someone who believes


* dedicated to Jake Bruene, a talented youtube star.
Click his name to know more about him. ( *__*)v

Kay

KAY

One day
In the same way
I met Kay
Who had a key to went through her day
This Kay girl never get sad
In this life full of threat
Everyone want this girl
To be their pearl
Never get burn
Live on fire

Parental Tip :D

Parenting tips!

I saw my neighbor several weeks ago. She was angry to her daughter badly just because she asked her Mom to take her to Books Rental near my neighborhood. For all I knew, she did it because she was just too lazy to take her daughter. I think I'll be this kinda Mum someday, and I wish someone will remind me how big READING is.

Another thing that I need to tell you is Life is all about learning, with doing so you'll never got bored, never misled, and never be screwed. That's why I'm concern so much in Indonesia Education. I'd like to make children understand that reading is needed, reading is a must. They can even start it from the simplest thing like comics.

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Since reading is addictive they will crave for more reading objects. Believe me parents, comics is not always bad. I even started to read comics when I was 4. Well, I wasnt read them, more to watching the pictures and they were Hans Christian Andersen's. Somehow when I grew older, I can remember what the book was about, because I can still remember clearly that I told the stories to my younger siblings.

And I jumped into novel when I was 10 years old, and believe the novel was about the haunted house, the exorcism of a beautiful girl, lover’s murderer and more other similar over-dramatized books. I read it not because I like that kind of story, just because those were all that available to be read.

What so interesting about it is my Mother let me rent those books. What a cool Mom she was, She still is. Because I’m all filled with Christensen's tales I chose those books, It was for atleast 'Parental Advisory' kind of books. But that worked out just fine, as long as they're books they'll give you infos right?

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Thankfully, after those books, the Book Rental provided 'Goosebumps' books by R.L. Stine. Then continued with 'FEARSTREET' also by Stine, teenage magz, and I've also read comics a lil bit. (The level was very awkward for 10 y.o., I know) I read this book with monster on its cover.

What I'm trying to say is, do not ever restrict your children to read or watch TV n dvds, since they have a lot of good effects on them in the future. But, parental guide will always be needed of course!!! :)

So What's New About It?

Gone with the Flow

 I'm so tired for planning my life. I used to strict to a plan and never look back cos everything was smoothly applicable. But it stopped after the last semester in college, my life has changed since. All of my plans were ruined one by one and facing their own fall. Well if you ask me how did it feel? It sucks as you can imagine! That will describe everything. 

Anyway, stop with the black-diary-kinda-thing, now I'll just live my life the way it is, without too many plans. Go with the flow. Keep on playing the script of my life. All I can think right now is how to set my poems in a bundle and sent it to the publishers, and hopefully they'll publish it or whatever. I just want the world to know what am I good at. Or am I not? Whateverrr.

And after all, I still think writing is my skill. I tell stories by writing it, plus giving it a lil this and that, to make it more dramatic. Oh yeah, dramatic is my middle name actually. I've been surrounded by drama queens in my entire life, so being dramatic wouldn’t be too much. Writing is where I can express myself without anyone to tell me what to do. Writing is my sense to imagine the world that I've never been. I've never been in love but through writing, I can empath how lovers feel better. I've never been cheated before, but through writing, it's like I've been cheated hundred times. Psychotic, I know! That the best journey you can get from writing. 

Do you think that I'll give up on life? no fogging way! I'll survive somehow. Well, anyhow.