He

(14/10/2008)

His stare was stark

We'd never know what behind his eyes

We'd never know what in his deepest mind

He looked up,

His tears fell down

The red rose tattoo in his right arm

With the scorpion one in his left could not cover his downfall feelings

We know he's tired

We can see it from his eyes

He used to be tough, he used to be strong

Now,

He fades his spirit away

Just don't give, you can't give up

Father!

My In-Law

(19/05/2011)

He roles like baby

Playing hearts like he's ready

To lose his deary

Your bro not that boy

Played with my heart like it's toy

You're a pain, he's a joy

My brother-in-law

If no heart wants you, then how?

Grow up will you now!

Crashed Bash

Crashed crush
Missed bash

The Life

Our cries are their way

Our laughs cause their sad

Are we going to stay?

I think they'll never mind about that

From night until day

But we still stuck in the same raid

All of precious ways turn to grey

They have no heart to be laid

While they're enjoying their singings

Our breakfast done at supper

They may have strength with things

But we're stronger by suffer

But what they got is illusion

By the time they're in our position

Since people have their own portion

Sadly,

There will be no way even for regression

Cos will be too late for asking remission

Wishing in Sizzling and Crying in Howling

A pretty Fox regaining her strength in cold

She lies on a trunk in moss and mold

She turns her head, looking for someone to hold

But she always alone, about that, she's never been told

A medium length snake discovers the rainforest

Almost a mile, he found a sparkling frog

He chases the frog and slithering to the west

He thought, "Too old for that," when froggie jumped over a log

The Fox and The Snake

They both lone and awake

See their reflection on a lake

Miserable is all they can take

"I'm alone and I'm in cold," The Fox howling

"I'm old and loathed," sizzling The Snake

They both, though, keep on going

Looking for something as their birthday cake

Tenderness is expensive

Company is rare and too provocative

As Fox seizing the night, she keeps howling

"I wish I'm not the only one to feel this hollow"

While Snake still wandering

"Would there be another with this unlucky sorrow?"

Uh-Oh

She was making love with him the other night

Without protection she felt alright

Yesterday she found herself worried instead of proud

Cos she was sure that she hasn’t got IT this month

Today doctor said, “Congratulation. You’re going to be a mom.”

“Uh-Oh”, that’s all she could say

Realized that she’s only sixteenth just today!

Body and Soul Amendment

(04may2011)

For the deep inhales are for the fresh air
I put my flab in flare
By stretch, stand, and lay
The exhales scared the negatives away
My soul soon be healed I know
As I stiffen my muscles and bow
The beautify of silence is the best rhyme
Along with the body that sings in time
Yoga is what my advertisement
Of health in and on mind amendment


"This poetry made for contest in YOGA theme."

RICH

Don't have money
Nothing mine's fancy
But I'm still richie
Cos I got honey

I'm not weary
I'm not angry
Just very happy
Cos I got sweetie

I know how love could kill me
Life and love, they both tricky
but they can't make me blurry
Cos I got you, to be called baby

Karma

KARMA

Did you do it on purpose?

Left me after you kick me at first

You tortured me when your anger burst

Among human you're the very cursed

Please remember

It is God's law running

Even for now is a men rule happening

What you did to me

To you will be coming

And to celebrate that time

I'll be singing

Pasangan

(08-08-08)

Cinta identik dengan pasangan
Saat pena tertoreh, kertas mengabadikannya
Saat debu sedang bosan, angin meniupnya
Saat matahari kelelahan, hujan menggantikannya
Saat api terlalu emosi, abu memperingatkannya

Namun tak selalu mereka berdampingan
Saat kertas terisi penuh, pena akan meninggalkannya
Saat debu tertiup, akankah angin kembali menemukannya
Saat matahari bugar, hujan diusirnya
Saat abu menguasai, api hanyalah hitam jelaga

Pergi

(08-08-08)

Kutatap sekali lagi bulu mata lentiknya
Kutiup lembut, dia pun tersenyum, terjaga
Aku membalas senyumnya dengan kecupan
Dia memejamkan mata
Siapa sangka itu senyum terakhirnya
Hanya tertidur tampaknya
Bahkan badai tak mampu bangunkannya
Ia telah tiada

Mad

(2003)

Cloudy day and misty thoughts are inside me
Though outside is as clearly as a summer can be
Honey. Honey. Honey.
The word feels bitter in my mind
I can't believe that you are one of that kind
Who steps on woman's heart
After you gave her wild card

Really a brain damage you've caused me
I keep on telling myself
That no one can heal that
But you,
The maker of my sad

If Only I Could

Sometimes...
We might regret
The kind of things that we have said
If only I could try to reach you
If only I could try to feel you
The way you felt for me
Just a second chance
That's only I need to be

All the things seemed to over for me
The time I saw your body
The way you lied in front of me
If only I could turn back the time
Time when you looked at me
With your heart right through me
The cold and numb were all inside me, baby
I'm very sorry

If only I could turn back the time
When I wasn't in love with you
When I never wanted you
So I could change it all
So you would know
I have sparks for you too
So you may go with my love
Not those misery feelings you knew

Kiss Me

Open the shield and reach me


Break the law and hug me


Grab the moment and kiss me

Fall for Life

(2008)

If it was fun to feel free
Why did you stop?
If it was free to feel love
How could you fail?
If it is love you would only fall for
So what life is?

Scarface

(13-10-2008)

He lives in pain
Everyday is a long day
Three hours of misery
Six hours of hard working
The rest time of crying
And bed time of hoping

Scarface lives in pain
No one loves him
Nobody wants him
Scarface lives in pain
He walks in his own path
He cries in his every sleep

Scarface lives in pain
Three hours of wandering the night
Six hours of searching something missing
The rest of times of regretting
And bed time of hoping
That he won't be awaken again

 

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Meeting Best Buddies! (With whom you spent 'that moments' IS what important!!!)

No...not something wild. No...not something illegal. No...not something naughty. Stop guessiiiiing!!

I met my bestfriends last night.

Just like what besties did when they met, we also did the same things. We took pictures, we drank (mine was sinom jamoo), we ate,; we dug our own histories and laughed about them, even they weren’t that entertaining at those times :D

We're talking sh*t, talking somebody else's stuffs (sh*t, red), talking somebody's somebody else's stuffs. We’re laughing something UNIMPORTANTS. We laughed a lot I could feel my face exercising! :D We’re laughing about what went on FB, on twitter and youtube.

I forgot how to act silly, how to laugh-till-cry and I even forgot how fun talking-trash is

I think if it's not accident, cancer, or any other serious illnesses that would take your lives, maturity would! 

People needs to relax and act silly, atleast once in a month in the rest of their lives. And once you acted silly, you will want some more! This is addicted! That's why it's hard to make childish people go mature!

Do you know how it feels to laugh continuously for 1 ½ hours? I do! Feels amazing, feels like you never got sad before. Like you never know what tears are! (Ok, this one is too much :D). Last night was amazing, we really should do that MORE!!! Such a shame we didn't get perfect form last night, there's no Putri, Dian, Yudha, and Depe. L

Oh yeah, I love you guys that much! :)

Kurt Hugo Schneider & Jake Bruene

Who are they? Well, if you ever searched on youtube, KURT's name certainly very familiar for you. He is a Yale graduate, yes he's a nerd who loves games. He produces online series known as "College Musical". He collaborates a lot with his friend Samuel Tsui. But I'm here not to talk about his sidekick, Kurt is what matter and important. He also produced original songs sang by Sam Tsui titled Don't Want an Ending; Start Again, but I LOVE how he acted inside his video about valentine's day! Very funny!!!

 

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He covers top 40 songs with Sam Tsui or Jake Bruene. Kurt and Jake are bestfriends. When they collaborate or doing the battle on youtube (Kurt vids vs Jake's vids), you can see that they're really close. Jake also Yale's graduate. How life is so unfair if u think about this, right? :))

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My favorite about them are, when they started the battle to cover songs using unique musical instrument with the help of unusual tools such as CELLPHONE or SQUEAKY TOYS.  :))

Well, all that I can say, they're awesome, cool, charismatic, smart, fun, anything u could say if u met a real SUPERMAN in real life!!!

These are their links!
Kurt's Youtube
Jake's Youtube

Words

Words can act beyond slap and kiss. 

Words can haunt beyond fear and fierce.

You might not breathe this bliss

But for me, 

word is impeccable finish.

Life

When everything destroyed, I should laugh
Because crying would be a fault

When I meet pain, I should smile
What is pain to be compared with living vain

When I'm dumped, I should be glad
For I know he's not the best

When you are missed, be concerned
Since you don't know what you are missed for

When you fly too high, be real
you are not in a dream

Killed

(20-01-2011)

He stands there
There's either a way to hell
Nor stairs to heaven
His fate?
Has been proven

He sees her, crying on him
He can tell through the glimmering glim
Himself, lying unshield
He has been killed

I've Come

(11-11-2004)

Scream! And Please make it loud
Run and hide! Til I find your track
I've come for you
I've come to take my justice
To taste the justify
I've come to speak my language
My evil soul language
And sing to my heart
My wounded shrinking heart
I've come to see the judge
My final judge
To judge you, people with mud and polluted heart
Why don't you start running now?
To give me a bit challenge anyhow
Cos I'll find you
Eventually

You Have To

Really, I just want you to be happy
That's why you have to pick me
I'm the one who will make you free
I need you to agree
For me, as your love story

Past and Future

(14-12-2005)

He is my past
Would you be my future?
If you ever be my past
Shall he be my future?
What about after you?
Would there be another person
Then you'll be history too?

But between you and him
There are gaps that couldn't be filled
He is my history and you are my next story
Though next story is just a history for next story
But I live in the now
It's your arm that surrounds me now

Nothing

(2005)

Nothing doesn't mean none of thing
I love you
Maybe that's nothing to you but to me a thing
You hate me
Maybe that's nothing for you but for me huge thing
The least you still care enough for hating
I may be nothing before you but I am something
I may be nothing for you but you're only one thing
And I'm worth big thing

Unforgivable Sinner

(1998)

You kick me like I'm trash
You slap me like I'm slave
Beating me is your bash
Don't you realize
You have awaken my brave

I swear of my heart
I'll drown you in the sea
There's no more we
I'll punch you like a bell
Send you to the hell

I will call your death
Without anyone beside you
I promise I won't be sad
The hatred just slightly bigger than I love you

I Have You

I have you in my brain
I have your name in my skin
I feel your spirit through my vein
Separating our heart is a sin

If You Ask Me

If you ask me
How deep my love is
I wouldn't know the answer
For I will only reach the bottom in ever after

And if you ask me
to measure my heart
I'm afraid I would never see you again then
For the journey needs thousand years to end

Love

When you get there
Say my name then
For in second, I'm in your hand

Done and Gone

21-11-2009

What has been said is done
What has been done is gone
Nothing has been found
No one to count

You're Everywhere

Baby,
I can see you in my blind
I can hear you in my deaf
I can breathe you in my air
I can feel you in my sleep
Baby,
You're everywhere

God's Love

For the pain inside and the love outside

I know it well that God loves me no matter what

Mirror

We've been taught to look at the mirror in front not behind us

Cos we don't need to look back

To know who we really are

Tell Me

So tell me...
Why am I here,
If all you got is fierce
And all you caused is tears?

HOPE

You're a man without mankind
And a human without humanity, they've said
You're not getting well by take those in mind
Since stupidity and failure are what life's been paid
But hope is always free and available to aid

Free your soul
Fly high like a bird
Even there's nothing to be heard
Next to your lost there will be cope
That is what we sense as hope

Morning goes by but the night will return
The opportunity is rare
cos the time couldn't be turned
But hope is always there
Waiting for its turn

Not Same

Losing somebody 

Doesn't have to make you losing yourself

Try

Try to learn how to LOVE 

And forget how to HATE

Not Only

It is not only his appearance that I love
Most of all, his flawless heart


*Love u much much DonnieWahlberg
http://twitter.com/DonnieWahlberg

Anger

Anger is terrible that you feel exhausted after

Anger is danger that you might not healed after

There are Ears

It is true that your mouth is your own property

But please remember that there are ears

Which aren't yours

My Past Journey

(2008)

As I escaped those nights of cold and weary
You hugged her tight and dearly

As I've always kept our love and vanished the fury
You sank our lovely memory by starting your own story

As I moved on with pain and fierce
You forced me to wipe my tears

The arisen strength as I think of you
will only be my past journey

Back Stabber

(29Oct2008)

You are not the girl I knew before
We used to walk that road together
Now you're just cost me pain for more
And the cuts are going deeper

You knew it well I love him deep
You never mentioned you want him near
You become nightmare in my sleep
I want you leave with all my fear

The Shadow

(16OCT2008)

He kept his darkness for years
Now that it revealed
One has appeared
This one called QUESTION

He used to walk through his own shadow
No one chased him down
One has come
This one known as INSECURE

He was so cheerful
Never taste painful
One has gone
This one said LOVE

His shadow has revealed
His insecure haunts him down
One that gone, that said as love
Left scar in his heart
The shadow needs his light

My Lover is Gone

My lover was here
And I was steered
My Lover is gone
Now I'm facing the ground

I might confuse you or maybe betray you
I just got it back
It hangs around my neck
Only an inch to hack

It is indeed
Love that would kill me
It is indeed
Love that could kill me, make me and save me

Now he's gone
My love is gone, blown by my sin
My love is gone, blown with the wind
My lover is gone
How should I carry on?

Wrong Trail

Wrong Trail

(29/08/2007)

I saw you running

Following, me from behind

Stepping on a cracked trail

Can’t you hear me begging?

I know you, you’re chasing fail

You keep on running

Never heard me shouting

A failure you will be

You should’ve followed me

Now you keep on running and crying at once

Day and Night

Day and Night

When the day breaks
Get outside, you'll see my smile in the sun
And when the night falls,
No matter what I'll stay around

When the sun goes down and the black crawls out
Don't be scared
Because I'll be your sight to guide your path in the dark

TRACE

TRACE

As your heart forever untold
Your love forever on-hold

As your passion forever unspoken
Your desire forever unmoaned

As the emptiness is yours
Your life is the cost
Your existance leaves no trace
Indeed what you will face

Burden's Lighter

Burden's Lighter

When the smile of your face fades away
Remind yourself of your sadness
Then you'll smile again

When your eyes see with emptiness
Remind yourself of all your happiness
Then you'll see with joy

When you remember your pain to empathize better
And remember your joy to smile brighter
You just won your burden's lighter

Today

Today

Yesterday I woke up in pale
My soul partly disappeared
My breakfast was pain
The coffee was drain

Today I feel sadly in vain
Empty it is only I can hear
I wrap my other parts in shield
Cover my secrets with filth

Tomorrow I would still smell your lies
Crush my day to curse your vanish
Hoping that someday
You will be gone in blemish

What a miracle

What a Miracle

What a miracle
The sun shines so bright
The ocean brings the lives
The wind breezes our hearts

What a miracle
I can see sun in your eyes
I feel the ocean in your smile
and I breathe the breeze by your side

Heaven

I'm in heaven
No more word that spoken
Not the other person
Yours to me, mine to you

Young Love

Boy. Boy. Boy.
You're so unpredictable
You even kissed me on my table
Maybe you had found me usable

Boy. Boy. Boy.
You didn't even stay with me
You didn't even love me
But you could rise curious out of me

Boy. Boy. Boy.
So much memories to be shared
but then again, darling
It was never love that flared

Drug Store

 (31-08-2007)

Friends are like Drug store. 

They provide:
The liquid to ease cough caused by handsomeness
The ointment to cover scars caused by scratching truth
The pills to ease irritation caused by lies
The band-aid to collect yourself up after shattered by love


Thanx friends for healing us up.

Roller Coaster

Roller Coaster

You're higher than my mind could take me
Faster than my thought could ever be
Scary. Scary. Scary.

I grip on what I can hold
My breath paused without being told
Suddenly, I'm no longer sad
I should get another ticket

I'm Not Leaving

-I'm Not Leaving- (Jan2011)

The cool breezes
Take me to the valley
Where the streams
Lead us straight to heavenly alley

The delightful sounds,
whispering magics
This happiest happiness
Filling my feeling

Sorrow and loneliness
They had my good bye kiss
Definitely,
I'm not leaving

Everytime I Swear

-1998-

Without anytime
I will get you
Just arrange your words
And say you love me too

Could you give me some love
For just a moment
'Cos there's none reason
To make me different

There's no day without you
There's no word that I can say too
Just please forgive me, oh baby, I do
I really miss you cos my love so true

Jake

-Jake*-

On the other street
I found a sheet
Full of the beat
Only meant to heat
Someone who believes

Jake may lost his sheet
Full of his beat
But he relieved
knew that it would heat
someone who believes


* dedicated to Jake Bruene, a talented youtube star.
Click his name to know more about him. ( *__*)v

Kay

KAY

One day
In the same way
I met Kay
Who had a key to went through her day
This Kay girl never get sad
In this life full of threat
Everyone want this girl
To be their pearl
Never get burn
Live on fire

Parental Tip :D

Parenting tips!

I saw my neighbor several weeks ago. She was angry to her daughter badly just because she asked her Mom to take her to Books Rental near my neighborhood. For all I knew, she did it because she was just too lazy to take her daughter. I think I'll be this kinda Mum someday, and I wish someone will remind me how big READING is.

Another thing that I need to tell you is Life is all about learning, with doing so you'll never got bored, never misled, and never be screwed. That's why I'm concern so much in Indonesia Education. I'd like to make children understand that reading is needed, reading is a must. They can even start it from the simplest thing like comics.

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Since reading is addictive they will crave for more reading objects. Believe me parents, comics is not always bad. I even started to read comics when I was 4. Well, I wasnt read them, more to watching the pictures and they were Hans Christian Andersen's. Somehow when I grew older, I can remember what the book was about, because I can still remember clearly that I told the stories to my younger siblings.

And I jumped into novel when I was 10 years old, and believe the novel was about the haunted house, the exorcism of a beautiful girl, lover’s murderer and more other similar over-dramatized books. I read it not because I like that kind of story, just because those were all that available to be read.

What so interesting about it is my Mother let me rent those books. What a cool Mom she was, She still is. Because I’m all filled with Christensen's tales I chose those books, It was for atleast 'Parental Advisory' kind of books. But that worked out just fine, as long as they're books they'll give you infos right?

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Thankfully, after those books, the Book Rental provided 'Goosebumps' books by R.L. Stine. Then continued with 'FEARSTREET' also by Stine, teenage magz, and I've also read comics a lil bit. (The level was very awkward for 10 y.o., I know) I read this book with monster on its cover.

What I'm trying to say is, do not ever restrict your children to read or watch TV n dvds, since they have a lot of good effects on them in the future. But, parental guide will always be needed of course!!! :)

So What's New About It?

Gone with the Flow

 I'm so tired for planning my life. I used to strict to a plan and never look back cos everything was smoothly applicable. But it stopped after the last semester in college, my life has changed since. All of my plans were ruined one by one and facing their own fall. Well if you ask me how did it feel? It sucks as you can imagine! That will describe everything. 

Anyway, stop with the black-diary-kinda-thing, now I'll just live my life the way it is, without too many plans. Go with the flow. Keep on playing the script of my life. All I can think right now is how to set my poems in a bundle and sent it to the publishers, and hopefully they'll publish it or whatever. I just want the world to know what am I good at. Or am I not? Whateverrr.

And after all, I still think writing is my skill. I tell stories by writing it, plus giving it a lil this and that, to make it more dramatic. Oh yeah, dramatic is my middle name actually. I've been surrounded by drama queens in my entire life, so being dramatic wouldn’t be too much. Writing is where I can express myself without anyone to tell me what to do. Writing is my sense to imagine the world that I've never been. I've never been in love but through writing, I can empath how lovers feel better. I've never been cheated before, but through writing, it's like I've been cheated hundred times. Psychotic, I know! That the best journey you can get from writing. 

Do you think that I'll give up on life? no fogging way! I'll survive somehow. Well, anyhow. 

Child, please find a new job soon!

Hai fellas (for you who care enough to read this)...

Being unemployed really distract my diet. By I say diet, it means my appetite. Eventhough it was in Ramadhan -where you should have lost ur weight after it's over-, my appetite was went like VERTICALLY increased (unstoppable, irresistible and unbelievable appetite). So,despite of my unlucky luck in job-searchings, I try to keep my appetite forgettable by crocheting, but...everytime I got strangled with yarn skeins in my hands, my father always looked at me and gave me the "Please get a job soon, dear daughter!!!" LOL. Well daddy, I tried. Really.

Here's d story...
So before Ramadhan came, I got sick for about 2 months (thanx to my gastric-acid problem). I wasnt able to attend few interviews, three really prospect interviews (can you imagine). There was one day when I got better and started eat normally, I try to find another job. While I was waiting for the interview call I spent my day with crocheting. Day by day, the phone call I've waited never rang that's when I decided to stop awhile and trying my  new crocheting project. Then I really got stucked with a new project in making baby shoes. My father came to me and said "Have you applied to ANY company?" As like he said it with a curious face. I answered lightly "I have, to a few companies." Then he seemed relieved. I felt really awful because I know for sure, he'd like me to apply for Ministry of Foreign Affairs (KEMLU) but he never said it straight to me. Then I thought maybe this is my chance, my way, cos I've got no job afterall. So, I said "Dad, what do you think if I try Kemlu (Kementrian Luar Negeri)?" Daddy seemed really happy of course (I knew it from his face and his hidden smile). I went to Jakarta for a bout a month later, I felt really nervous when I started to read the test quetions. Ffiiuhh!!!

Thankfully I made it through my first test. I couldnt say thanks enough to God. I went back again for the next test which unfortunately I failed it successfully. I really hate my self that time, then I think again that everything sweet wouldnt come smoothly. Im still in my emotional recovery right now ('emotionally' for being failed the test not in a romantic mean). So, I just wanna share this to you guys. Sometimes we fall very hard, but then again if you managed to stand up again, you will have enough strength to change the world (please dont puke.). What world? well that depend... ;)

The point is Rough journey always needed to score any GOAL. (that's me being wise-a*s).

-My Sister’s Keeper- By: Jodi Picoult

Book Reference: My Sister’s Keeper

By: Jodi Picoult

The book was about a girl named Anna, who was trying to have a total control of her own body. The story began from how Anna was conceived and what was her purpose to life. It turns out to be that she was born for saving her sister’s life.

Anna had to sue her parents because they always ask her help when her sister had collapsed in the hospital. And that’s not it; in her journey for having this run she had conflict with her own heart, her relationship with her family also in jeopardy.

There are times when you can put smile in your face while read this book, and also tears for the touching moments. What I can say about this book is I enjoy it when I read it and I guess you would to.

The book also adapted into screening movie, but the content is totally different. If you had watched it and enjoyed it then you should read the book, which is more details, more touching, and more twisted than you ever imagine.

Reading this book could really make you grateful for your normal and healthy life unlike Kate, Anna’s sister, who has had cancer since she was two. The book teaches us how to appreciate our family and how to love them in a just way.

The Critiques are Lame, Really

Somehow, I had found myself as a total loser in life. But then I think again, well maybe it just YOU whom crossed the line of others life!!! blahhh!!!

I am who I am and you better shut it if you think you can tell so much bout me! Cos no one can and I prefer it stays that way!!! Shoo...
-25 year old grown up woman without settled job. God really not being cooperated with all  my prayers lately, well I dont know, maybe I deserved it or maybe I'll get another 'answer' someday. But I was this close (picture me showing you the tiniest measure of my fingers), very close but again I failed it (If u r my bestfriends, u know!). Sometimes I really want to shout this out "Atleast please God give me one thing... I dont know, one thing to make me feel that Im worth it, that I really loved by You." but then again that won't work, cos God is The Boss, well atleast for me. Well this feeling really chopped me up and torn me apart (hyperbola, I know) til I heard something on TV "sometimes God tests us to raise our dignity before Him (this is my own language style, I dont know what is the correct English or the proper one for Quran's Words)".
*Sigh*
I try my best to be patient, (again...) and hoping that someday everything will be just fine.
The most irritating thing is there are a lot of people talking S**t about my life, Why I havent got a job and creepy stuff like that. Ewww, they dont even know me exactly, I mean they dont even know what time I wake up (Oh yes u'll be surprised if u do!!!), what my middle name is, what am I good at and even what I've done to draw-all-of-the-chance to get hired. Believe me, I do everything I could and legal, of course. Crap! I applied for administration, teacher, assistant teacher, writer or copywriter (I want this one so bad!), all of the-non-experience and from-all-major job vacancies...but once again just not my luck. So now Im just gonna wait, cos I've been doing my best so let THE BOSS do the rest.

-The 'L word' havent touched me yet. Well this is serious since im already 25 going to 26 and the clock is ticking and i havent even start anything at all. Zero, Na-da, Perfectly None! It's like u're on your college age for now, but unfortunately you've only reached junior high school, so much to catch up... And since im a poet (unpublished one), Drama movies lover, Romance comedy series believer, and addicted to love songs well that means like I'm a romantic person, and that makes it more miserable!
*Sigh*
All people said about look. Once again about look. what's good, what's bad. What's hot, what's not. What's happening, what's embarrassing, etc... Do they even know that people like us do try!!! People with no experience in love life always try to be atleast keen and neat, smiling always, well maintained and also groomed pretty good. But once again it happens to be my story... Well you're not expecting me to say about my weight right? (please be dreaming!) Cos from I know of, people with flabbiness also can be happy with their couple.
It's really complicated actually when people start talking behind your back and try to bring you down because of what your lackness, because of your monthly salary, because of your lonesome, because of what they think is right should be your parameter too. Well u know what they can really kiss dog's ass bcos I wont buy their trash talks anymore. Only the worse is my parents feeling, have they ever think about it before they throw a knive at you??? Dont think so. Well this all go to my relatives for their sick minds and their huge flabby lies!!! Such a lousy full of critiques hypocrites! Please be silent or Buried in Peace!

<3 (God forgives me for being honest) <3

After I read "Good in Bed - By: Jennifer Weiner"

To see my first review go click  I Wasnt Finish Reading Yet!!!

Well.. to finish my first review bout this book, I gotta say that this book is quite something. Because at the end it served us with something that was really touching. By I say touching means it taught us that 'look' is not that important if it comes to anyone's life. Cannie didn't feel like she will be happy again after she found out that her baby was born premature and she's not in a good shape, she was small with wrinkles around her skin and pinkish frail skin. This had taught Cannie that all of her concern about her weight and Bruce (Her Ex-bf) is nothing compare to her baby's life. She had fallen into hole where she couldnt find anyone else to help until Dr. K come. He came to save Cannie from her crumbling live and finally replace Bruce's place in Cannie's heart.

You have to read the book to understand Cannie's character. The book is quite special itself cos of it's funny language. And please mind that it pulished in 2000, so you might have to synchronize a lil bit with the fashion and other trends (cars) back in those days. Actually I read the books online. you can download it from 4shared, but if you dont like to read from pc or notebook, well u should try for book stores. But once again since it published in 2000 u might have a lil trouble with that. :)

The insight of the book is you need to feel comfortable about yourself therefore u'll find ur own beauty. you need to lean on someone's shoulder sometimes to release all the burdens inside, someone that you can trust.

Good in Bed - By: Jennifer Weiner

Good in Bed (2001)
By: Jennifer Weiner

I've been reading Jennifer Weiner's 'Good in Bed' (the same author of 'In Her Shoes'). The language is not too formal that's why I can keep it up until now. The story is about a young woman named Candace (Cannie) which have a problem with her weight (Sooooo Me!!! :P) and her confidence. She is furious when she knew that his ex-boyfriend named Bruce expose her sexually in the Moxie magazine.

From what I've read so far, Cannie is a cynical and cranky woman that cant manage to differ between random opinion and opinions from her dearests. Well I dont know the end yet but I believe that this book wont let me down :). This book taught me how to respect yourself so the other will respect you too It sounds cliche, I know. But the cliche story packaged in a good and funny way will entertains us. talking bout cliche, this book is not too cliche afterall, there's a lot of twisted situation inside that wont make u bored out. Nonetheles to say, it's a good book. :)

The Expendables - Worth to watch for the casts only!

The Expendables - Worth to watch for the casts only!

I watched 'the expendable' movie yesterday. Thankfully I watched it in DVD so I wouldn't get angry that much to cost me the ticket. For you who haven't watched this, maybe u should think twice before u see it. It is ridiculously has so ridiculously many of ridiculous dialogues in it, even for an amateur director. There's a lot of dry dialogues, -maybe they put them anyway because they thought they're funny- but they werent funny at all (I dont know bout you, guys).

Well I really am appreciate Stallone's effort to make his own movie, but come on!!! Hire a better action movie script writer, please! And there was this scene when the team had to set up explosives, God... they showed it without any edit, yup! They did it all over again and again. I mean I get it! Now can you please move to the next scene. I barely keep my eyes opened until then. And the story was only so-so, just a common mercenaries that had a later consciousness as pure as mother Teresa, and this consciousness have brought them back to the place where they need to save someone and not for the money, but only to save her...Wooohooo... touching, huh?

The casts they were wonderful, very wonderful....but with those dialogues and that kind of editing...such a shame. Well maybe I expected too much in this movie. I compared this movie with Rambo series, Transporter series, Danny the Dog and even Steve Austin's underrated thriller movies (I even forget the title and they don't even provide the info in Wikipedia), or maybe I even expected too much by comparing it with A-TEAM, but hey...the promo was really big and the casts was really tempting...

Shortly... Sorry to say Mr. Stallone, I wont watch this movie for twice... I wont even watched it if i knew it would be like this.

Book Reference: The Girls of Riyadh

Book Reference: The Girls of Riyadh

By: Rajaa Al-Sanea

This controversional book has been restricted for Saudi Arabia because of the content and the fact that going on in this country, which exposed in this book. The characters in this book was based on real stories, each with their own conflict in life and love.

The book was telling us about the life of four young ladies in Saudi Arabia. Just like the other girl in this country, they always dream about perfect romantic love story for their lives. Too bad to tell, their dreams weren’t happened as they've wished for. Each of their marriage left them in tears. They always trying to solve the problems and share to each other, yet the culture and the rigid religion values had them left aside over and over again.

The story was a little cliché just like another book about Arabian girl which always trapped by their rigid cultural values and hurt by their own lovers. But then again, Al Sanea had done a great work by writing the novel in a different way. 

What you can get by read it are knowledge and information about what is life in Saudi Arabia; how the culture grabs individual freedom, how the rigid value drops women spirits and even how the government emphasizes those values in everyday life. Also in this book, you can find that the teenagers are not allowed to hanging around outside their house for later than 07.30 p.m., especially with sexually opposite person.

The book could really make us see how teenager’s life in Arabic culture (yeah!!! U’ll be surprised by their way of living) and also love life in Saudi Arabia from different angle. The book is much recommended for you who like to observe another country’s culture and values that came along with that. As for you who really into romance novel, I guess this isn’t for you because the story isn’t just about the cheesy romance afterall. The last words from me are for you the reader and book consumer, this book is totally must have!!!

O'oohh...there was SHIT! literally!!!

Jadi Begini... sebenarnya kejadian misteri ini sudah lama terjadi, namun karena kesibukan menumpuk baru bisa membaginya sekarang.

Pada hari itu hari Minggu (tanggal dirahasiakan karena lupa), saya akan berencana bertemu dengan beberapa sahabat dan teman lama. Kebetulan dalam acara tersebut, teman kami yang bernama Puspa akan mengadakan Pernikahan minggu depannya dan dia akan memberitahukan ttg acaranya hari itu.

Karena saya yang paling rajin, dilligent, cerdas dan berintelektual, otomatis saya datang paling awal. karena saya juga agak beser, maka tujuan utama adalah toilet FOODCOURT TP, karena ngantri saya cari2 pintu yang bisa dibuka (kebiasaan tolol wanita, meski yakin toilet itu ada 'gangguan' kita pasti tetap berusaha mendobrak pintu2 itu dan berharap sedikit keberuntungan bahwea toilet itu kosong dan berfungsi baik) dan tentu saja hasilnya nihil...

Saat akhirnya orang didepan saya selesai 'urusannya' saya otomatis masuk kedalam, namunn... betapa kagetnya saya saat mata perawan saya ini menangkap sesuatu yang SANGAT AMAT BESAR (u/ ukuran kotoran manusia) mengapung di dalam WC... Dengan segenap hati akhirnya saya misuh2 (kali ini secara oral bukan dalam hati lagi)... NAmun karena saya mandiri dan cukup independen saya berusaha menyiram WC tersebut. Percobaan pertama...It didnt even move!!!, percobaan kedua...hanya serpihan kecil dari sesuatu yang BESAR itu yang berhasil melayang2 disekeliling air tetapi WC masih didominasi benda yang sebesar dildo itu (maybe twice larger than that!!!)... SIA-SIA sudah niatan saya dan saya segera keluar dari bilik toilet itu, karena gak lucu kan kalo mbak2 cleaning serv disitu ngira saya yang buang hajat!!!

Setelah saya keluar mbak2 cleaning serv curiga kenapa saya keluar tanpa sempat menutup pintu toilet, dia pun masuk dan beberapa saat ada didalam bilik toilet tsb (tampaknya dia juga berusaha melakukan 'niatan baik' spt yg sblmnya saya lakukan) namun tentu saja mbak2 tsb keluar dgn wajah masam dan ditekuk-tekuk. Sampai akhirnya dia kembali dengan membawa seember besar air untuk menyiram THAT GIGANTIC SHIT!

Wowww, that was really BIG GIGANTIC SHIT. and that's not it. there were two of them!!! GOD!!!

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Dian Ayu Kusuma Dewi

Damn..
Aq br slese maem,mbok sms cpt2 buka n0temu ini dar..iuuuu,i wanNa thr0w-up

Yesterday at 10:46pm · Delete

Andika Gtg Ryg

Oalah..nasibmu din

Today at 12:23am · Delete

Ayu Laras Sari

Din,maaf..tp aq pernah menjadi salah satu pelakunya!
Di kamar mandi kantorku!
Wakakakakaa...!!!

I did flush,but it didn't work! What can I do then?? Hahahahaaa...

Today at 6:07am · Delete

Dinda Minardi

@Dian: maaf yan... hahahaa
@Dika: rejeki banget yo... :)))
@Ayu: dasar kon yu'... tapi aku yakin gak seGEDE yang tak liat!!! EWWW... n apakah doni tau ttg kelakuan minusmu ini???

Today at 11:51am · Delete

Yenni Fitri

Wah keberuntunganmu itu din.. Jarang2 kan dpt 'keberuntungan' segede itu hahaha.. Tp btapa baiknya kmu din berusaha utk menutupi aib org tsb dgn cr menyiramnya..
Kalo aq paling lgsg tak tinggal pergi..
Krn aq ga mau dikira sbg pelakunya..
Wahahahahaha

11 hours ago · Delete

Bayuseta Jati

Aq juga pernah jdi pelaku waktu layover d changi singapore...... Aaawww.... Romantic....

2 hours ago · Delete

Ayu Laras Sari

Sweeeettt......

Wakakakaaaaa....

about an hour ago · Delete

Dinda Minardi

@Yeni: karena aku kebelet pipis banget...
@Bayu: kok iso romantic? did u make out with the janitor??
@Ayu: U are a total sinner... hahahaha

about an hour ago · Delete

Khumairatul Adawiyah

gak seperti ayu dan bayu. aku pernah senasib denganmu din.... melihat "itu" mengapung di wc waktu aku mau pake toilet di prambanan.
sayangnya, aku gak sebaik kamu. aku tinggal pergi sambil teriak2 dan pasang muka yg sama sekali gak manis. uuuuggggghhhh.......

37 minutes ago · Delete

Dinda Minardi

@Ira: hahaha, kita kayak didzalimi yooo... aku sih kaget karena tuh barang GUEDEE banget Ra, aku sampe heran kok bisa ya barang segede itu keluar??? ampe sekarang aku gak abis pikiirrr... hahaha

36 minutes ago · Delete

Khumairatul Adawiyah

yup, sampe bikin lupa sama "urusan" kita sendiri ya din.....
yg lebih bikin aku penasaran adalah.... wanita macam apa yg bisa mengeluarkan barang se-GEDE itu.... ckckckck...

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