Mirror

We've been taught to look at the mirror in front not behind us

Cos we don't need to look back

To know who we really are

Tell Me

So tell me...
Why am I here,
If all you got is fierce
And all you caused is tears?

HOPE

You're a man without mankind
And a human without humanity, they've said
You're not getting well by take those in mind
Since stupidity and failure are what life's been paid
But hope is always free and available to aid

Free your soul
Fly high like a bird
Even there's nothing to be heard
Next to your lost there will be cope
That is what we sense as hope

Morning goes by but the night will return
The opportunity is rare
cos the time couldn't be turned
But hope is always there
Waiting for its turn

Not Same

Losing somebody 

Doesn't have to make you losing yourself

Try

Try to learn how to LOVE 

And forget how to HATE

Not Only

It is not only his appearance that I love
Most of all, his flawless heart


*Love u much much DonnieWahlberg
http://twitter.com/DonnieWahlberg

Anger

Anger is terrible that you feel exhausted after

Anger is danger that you might not healed after

There are Ears

It is true that your mouth is your own property

But please remember that there are ears

Which aren't yours

My Past Journey

(2008)

As I escaped those nights of cold and weary
You hugged her tight and dearly

As I've always kept our love and vanished the fury
You sank our lovely memory by starting your own story

As I moved on with pain and fierce
You forced me to wipe my tears

The arisen strength as I think of you
will only be my past journey

Back Stabber

(29Oct2008)

You are not the girl I knew before
We used to walk that road together
Now you're just cost me pain for more
And the cuts are going deeper

You knew it well I love him deep
You never mentioned you want him near
You become nightmare in my sleep
I want you leave with all my fear

The Shadow

(16OCT2008)

He kept his darkness for years
Now that it revealed
One has appeared
This one called QUESTION

He used to walk through his own shadow
No one chased him down
One has come
This one known as INSECURE

He was so cheerful
Never taste painful
One has gone
This one said LOVE

His shadow has revealed
His insecure haunts him down
One that gone, that said as love
Left scar in his heart
The shadow needs his light

My Lover is Gone

My lover was here
And I was steered
My Lover is gone
Now I'm facing the ground

I might confuse you or maybe betray you
I just got it back
It hangs around my neck
Only an inch to hack

It is indeed
Love that would kill me
It is indeed
Love that could kill me, make me and save me

Now he's gone
My love is gone, blown by my sin
My love is gone, blown with the wind
My lover is gone
How should I carry on?

Wrong Trail

Wrong Trail

(29/08/2007)

I saw you running

Following, me from behind

Stepping on a cracked trail

Can’t you hear me begging?

I know you, you’re chasing fail

You keep on running

Never heard me shouting

A failure you will be

You should’ve followed me

Now you keep on running and crying at once

Day and Night

Day and Night

When the day breaks
Get outside, you'll see my smile in the sun
And when the night falls,
No matter what I'll stay around

When the sun goes down and the black crawls out
Don't be scared
Because I'll be your sight to guide your path in the dark

TRACE

TRACE

As your heart forever untold
Your love forever on-hold

As your passion forever unspoken
Your desire forever unmoaned

As the emptiness is yours
Your life is the cost
Your existance leaves no trace
Indeed what you will face

Burden's Lighter

Burden's Lighter

When the smile of your face fades away
Remind yourself of your sadness
Then you'll smile again

When your eyes see with emptiness
Remind yourself of all your happiness
Then you'll see with joy

When you remember your pain to empathize better
And remember your joy to smile brighter
You just won your burden's lighter

Today

Today

Yesterday I woke up in pale
My soul partly disappeared
My breakfast was pain
The coffee was drain

Today I feel sadly in vain
Empty it is only I can hear
I wrap my other parts in shield
Cover my secrets with filth

Tomorrow I would still smell your lies
Crush my day to curse your vanish
Hoping that someday
You will be gone in blemish

What a miracle

What a Miracle

What a miracle
The sun shines so bright
The ocean brings the lives
The wind breezes our hearts

What a miracle
I can see sun in your eyes
I feel the ocean in your smile
and I breathe the breeze by your side

Heaven

I'm in heaven
No more word that spoken
Not the other person
Yours to me, mine to you

Young Love

Boy. Boy. Boy.
You're so unpredictable
You even kissed me on my table
Maybe you had found me usable

Boy. Boy. Boy.
You didn't even stay with me
You didn't even love me
But you could rise curious out of me

Boy. Boy. Boy.
So much memories to be shared
but then again, darling
It was never love that flared

Drug Store

 (31-08-2007)

Friends are like Drug store. 

They provide:
The liquid to ease cough caused by handsomeness
The ointment to cover scars caused by scratching truth
The pills to ease irritation caused by lies
The band-aid to collect yourself up after shattered by love


Thanx friends for healing us up.

Roller Coaster

Roller Coaster

You're higher than my mind could take me
Faster than my thought could ever be
Scary. Scary. Scary.

I grip on what I can hold
My breath paused without being told
Suddenly, I'm no longer sad
I should get another ticket

I'm Not Leaving

-I'm Not Leaving- (Jan2011)

The cool breezes
Take me to the valley
Where the streams
Lead us straight to heavenly alley

The delightful sounds,
whispering magics
This happiest happiness
Filling my feeling

Sorrow and loneliness
They had my good bye kiss
Definitely,
I'm not leaving

Everytime I Swear

-1998-

Without anytime
I will get you
Just arrange your words
And say you love me too

Could you give me some love
For just a moment
'Cos there's none reason
To make me different

There's no day without you
There's no word that I can say too
Just please forgive me, oh baby, I do
I really miss you cos my love so true

Jake

-Jake*-

On the other street
I found a sheet
Full of the beat
Only meant to heat
Someone who believes

Jake may lost his sheet
Full of his beat
But he relieved
knew that it would heat
someone who believes


* dedicated to Jake Bruene, a talented youtube star.
Click his name to know more about him. ( *__*)v

Kay

KAY

One day
In the same way
I met Kay
Who had a key to went through her day
This Kay girl never get sad
In this life full of threat
Everyone want this girl
To be their pearl
Never get burn
Live on fire

Parental Tip :D

Parenting tips!

I saw my neighbor several weeks ago. She was angry to her daughter badly just because she asked her Mom to take her to Books Rental near my neighborhood. For all I knew, she did it because she was just too lazy to take her daughter. I think I'll be this kinda Mum someday, and I wish someone will remind me how big READING is.

Another thing that I need to tell you is Life is all about learning, with doing so you'll never got bored, never misled, and never be screwed. That's why I'm concern so much in Indonesia Education. I'd like to make children understand that reading is needed, reading is a must. They can even start it from the simplest thing like comics.

source: http://www.balita-anda.com/images/stories/artikel/20101103/www.balita-anda.com-gadis_kr_api.gif

Since reading is addictive they will crave for more reading objects. Believe me parents, comics is not always bad. I even started to read comics when I was 4. Well, I wasnt read them, more to watching the pictures and they were Hans Christian Andersen's. Somehow when I grew older, I can remember what the book was about, because I can still remember clearly that I told the stories to my younger siblings.

And I jumped into novel when I was 10 years old, and believe the novel was about the haunted house, the exorcism of a beautiful girl, lover’s murderer and more other similar over-dramatized books. I read it not because I like that kind of story, just because those were all that available to be read.

What so interesting about it is my Mother let me rent those books. What a cool Mom she was, She still is. Because I’m all filled with Christensen's tales I chose those books, It was for atleast 'Parental Advisory' kind of books. But that worked out just fine, as long as they're books they'll give you infos right?

source: http://www.thebathtub.net/photos/uncategorized/2007/08/09/goosebumps.jpg

Thankfully, after those books, the Book Rental provided 'Goosebumps' books by R.L. Stine. Then continued with 'FEARSTREET' also by Stine, teenage magz, and I've also read comics a lil bit. (The level was very awkward for 10 y.o., I know) I read this book with monster on its cover.

What I'm trying to say is, do not ever restrict your children to read or watch TV n dvds, since they have a lot of good effects on them in the future. But, parental guide will always be needed of course!!! :)

So What's New About It?

Gone with the Flow

 I'm so tired for planning my life. I used to strict to a plan and never look back cos everything was smoothly applicable. But it stopped after the last semester in college, my life has changed since. All of my plans were ruined one by one and facing their own fall. Well if you ask me how did it feel? It sucks as you can imagine! That will describe everything. 

Anyway, stop with the black-diary-kinda-thing, now I'll just live my life the way it is, without too many plans. Go with the flow. Keep on playing the script of my life. All I can think right now is how to set my poems in a bundle and sent it to the publishers, and hopefully they'll publish it or whatever. I just want the world to know what am I good at. Or am I not? Whateverrr.

And after all, I still think writing is my skill. I tell stories by writing it, plus giving it a lil this and that, to make it more dramatic. Oh yeah, dramatic is my middle name actually. I've been surrounded by drama queens in my entire life, so being dramatic wouldn’t be too much. Writing is where I can express myself without anyone to tell me what to do. Writing is my sense to imagine the world that I've never been. I've never been in love but through writing, I can empath how lovers feel better. I've never been cheated before, but through writing, it's like I've been cheated hundred times. Psychotic, I know! That the best journey you can get from writing. 

Do you think that I'll give up on life? no fogging way! I'll survive somehow. Well, anyhow. 

Child, please find a new job soon!

Hai fellas (for you who care enough to read this)...

Being unemployed really distract my diet. By I say diet, it means my appetite. Eventhough it was in Ramadhan -where you should have lost ur weight after it's over-, my appetite was went like VERTICALLY increased (unstoppable, irresistible and unbelievable appetite). So,despite of my unlucky luck in job-searchings, I try to keep my appetite forgettable by crocheting, but...everytime I got strangled with yarn skeins in my hands, my father always looked at me and gave me the "Please get a job soon, dear daughter!!!" LOL. Well daddy, I tried. Really.

Here's d story...
So before Ramadhan came, I got sick for about 2 months (thanx to my gastric-acid problem). I wasnt able to attend few interviews, three really prospect interviews (can you imagine). There was one day when I got better and started eat normally, I try to find another job. While I was waiting for the interview call I spent my day with crocheting. Day by day, the phone call I've waited never rang that's when I decided to stop awhile and trying my  new crocheting project. Then I really got stucked with a new project in making baby shoes. My father came to me and said "Have you applied to ANY company?" As like he said it with a curious face. I answered lightly "I have, to a few companies." Then he seemed relieved. I felt really awful because I know for sure, he'd like me to apply for Ministry of Foreign Affairs (KEMLU) but he never said it straight to me. Then I thought maybe this is my chance, my way, cos I've got no job afterall. So, I said "Dad, what do you think if I try Kemlu (Kementrian Luar Negeri)?" Daddy seemed really happy of course (I knew it from his face and his hidden smile). I went to Jakarta for a bout a month later, I felt really nervous when I started to read the test quetions. Ffiiuhh!!!

Thankfully I made it through my first test. I couldnt say thanks enough to God. I went back again for the next test which unfortunately I failed it successfully. I really hate my self that time, then I think again that everything sweet wouldnt come smoothly. Im still in my emotional recovery right now ('emotionally' for being failed the test not in a romantic mean). So, I just wanna share this to you guys. Sometimes we fall very hard, but then again if you managed to stand up again, you will have enough strength to change the world (please dont puke.). What world? well that depend... ;)

The point is Rough journey always needed to score any GOAL. (that's me being wise-a*s).

-My Sister’s Keeper- By: Jodi Picoult

Book Reference: My Sister’s Keeper

By: Jodi Picoult

The book was about a girl named Anna, who was trying to have a total control of her own body. The story began from how Anna was conceived and what was her purpose to life. It turns out to be that she was born for saving her sister’s life.

Anna had to sue her parents because they always ask her help when her sister had collapsed in the hospital. And that’s not it; in her journey for having this run she had conflict with her own heart, her relationship with her family also in jeopardy.

There are times when you can put smile in your face while read this book, and also tears for the touching moments. What I can say about this book is I enjoy it when I read it and I guess you would to.

The book also adapted into screening movie, but the content is totally different. If you had watched it and enjoyed it then you should read the book, which is more details, more touching, and more twisted than you ever imagine.

Reading this book could really make you grateful for your normal and healthy life unlike Kate, Anna’s sister, who has had cancer since she was two. The book teaches us how to appreciate our family and how to love them in a just way.

The Critiques are Lame, Really

Somehow, I had found myself as a total loser in life. But then I think again, well maybe it just YOU whom crossed the line of others life!!! blahhh!!!

I am who I am and you better shut it if you think you can tell so much bout me! Cos no one can and I prefer it stays that way!!! Shoo...
-25 year old grown up woman without settled job. God really not being cooperated with all  my prayers lately, well I dont know, maybe I deserved it or maybe I'll get another 'answer' someday. But I was this close (picture me showing you the tiniest measure of my fingers), very close but again I failed it (If u r my bestfriends, u know!). Sometimes I really want to shout this out "Atleast please God give me one thing... I dont know, one thing to make me feel that Im worth it, that I really loved by You." but then again that won't work, cos God is The Boss, well atleast for me. Well this feeling really chopped me up and torn me apart (hyperbola, I know) til I heard something on TV "sometimes God tests us to raise our dignity before Him (this is my own language style, I dont know what is the correct English or the proper one for Quran's Words)".
*Sigh*
I try my best to be patient, (again...) and hoping that someday everything will be just fine.
The most irritating thing is there are a lot of people talking S**t about my life, Why I havent got a job and creepy stuff like that. Ewww, they dont even know me exactly, I mean they dont even know what time I wake up (Oh yes u'll be surprised if u do!!!), what my middle name is, what am I good at and even what I've done to draw-all-of-the-chance to get hired. Believe me, I do everything I could and legal, of course. Crap! I applied for administration, teacher, assistant teacher, writer or copywriter (I want this one so bad!), all of the-non-experience and from-all-major job vacancies...but once again just not my luck. So now Im just gonna wait, cos I've been doing my best so let THE BOSS do the rest.

-The 'L word' havent touched me yet. Well this is serious since im already 25 going to 26 and the clock is ticking and i havent even start anything at all. Zero, Na-da, Perfectly None! It's like u're on your college age for now, but unfortunately you've only reached junior high school, so much to catch up... And since im a poet (unpublished one), Drama movies lover, Romance comedy series believer, and addicted to love songs well that means like I'm a romantic person, and that makes it more miserable!
*Sigh*
All people said about look. Once again about look. what's good, what's bad. What's hot, what's not. What's happening, what's embarrassing, etc... Do they even know that people like us do try!!! People with no experience in love life always try to be atleast keen and neat, smiling always, well maintained and also groomed pretty good. But once again it happens to be my story... Well you're not expecting me to say about my weight right? (please be dreaming!) Cos from I know of, people with flabbiness also can be happy with their couple.
It's really complicated actually when people start talking behind your back and try to bring you down because of what your lackness, because of your monthly salary, because of your lonesome, because of what they think is right should be your parameter too. Well u know what they can really kiss dog's ass bcos I wont buy their trash talks anymore. Only the worse is my parents feeling, have they ever think about it before they throw a knive at you??? Dont think so. Well this all go to my relatives for their sick minds and their huge flabby lies!!! Such a lousy full of critiques hypocrites! Please be silent or Buried in Peace!

<3 (God forgives me for being honest) <3

After I read "Good in Bed - By: Jennifer Weiner"

To see my first review go click  I Wasnt Finish Reading Yet!!!

Well.. to finish my first review bout this book, I gotta say that this book is quite something. Because at the end it served us with something that was really touching. By I say touching means it taught us that 'look' is not that important if it comes to anyone's life. Cannie didn't feel like she will be happy again after she found out that her baby was born premature and she's not in a good shape, she was small with wrinkles around her skin and pinkish frail skin. This had taught Cannie that all of her concern about her weight and Bruce (Her Ex-bf) is nothing compare to her baby's life. She had fallen into hole where she couldnt find anyone else to help until Dr. K come. He came to save Cannie from her crumbling live and finally replace Bruce's place in Cannie's heart.

You have to read the book to understand Cannie's character. The book is quite special itself cos of it's funny language. And please mind that it pulished in 2000, so you might have to synchronize a lil bit with the fashion and other trends (cars) back in those days. Actually I read the books online. you can download it from 4shared, but if you dont like to read from pc or notebook, well u should try for book stores. But once again since it published in 2000 u might have a lil trouble with that. :)

The insight of the book is you need to feel comfortable about yourself therefore u'll find ur own beauty. you need to lean on someone's shoulder sometimes to release all the burdens inside, someone that you can trust.

Good in Bed - By: Jennifer Weiner

Good in Bed (2001)
By: Jennifer Weiner

I've been reading Jennifer Weiner's 'Good in Bed' (the same author of 'In Her Shoes'). The language is not too formal that's why I can keep it up until now. The story is about a young woman named Candace (Cannie) which have a problem with her weight (Sooooo Me!!! :P) and her confidence. She is furious when she knew that his ex-boyfriend named Bruce expose her sexually in the Moxie magazine.

From what I've read so far, Cannie is a cynical and cranky woman that cant manage to differ between random opinion and opinions from her dearests. Well I dont know the end yet but I believe that this book wont let me down :). This book taught me how to respect yourself so the other will respect you too It sounds cliche, I know. But the cliche story packaged in a good and funny way will entertains us. talking bout cliche, this book is not too cliche afterall, there's a lot of twisted situation inside that wont make u bored out. Nonetheles to say, it's a good book. :)

The Expendables - Worth to watch for the casts only!

The Expendables - Worth to watch for the casts only!

I watched 'the expendable' movie yesterday. Thankfully I watched it in DVD so I wouldn't get angry that much to cost me the ticket. For you who haven't watched this, maybe u should think twice before u see it. It is ridiculously has so ridiculously many of ridiculous dialogues in it, even for an amateur director. There's a lot of dry dialogues, -maybe they put them anyway because they thought they're funny- but they werent funny at all (I dont know bout you, guys).

Well I really am appreciate Stallone's effort to make his own movie, but come on!!! Hire a better action movie script writer, please! And there was this scene when the team had to set up explosives, God... they showed it without any edit, yup! They did it all over again and again. I mean I get it! Now can you please move to the next scene. I barely keep my eyes opened until then. And the story was only so-so, just a common mercenaries that had a later consciousness as pure as mother Teresa, and this consciousness have brought them back to the place where they need to save someone and not for the money, but only to save her...Wooohooo... touching, huh?

The casts they were wonderful, very wonderful....but with those dialogues and that kind of editing...such a shame. Well maybe I expected too much in this movie. I compared this movie with Rambo series, Transporter series, Danny the Dog and even Steve Austin's underrated thriller movies (I even forget the title and they don't even provide the info in Wikipedia), or maybe I even expected too much by comparing it with A-TEAM, but hey...the promo was really big and the casts was really tempting...

Shortly... Sorry to say Mr. Stallone, I wont watch this movie for twice... I wont even watched it if i knew it would be like this.

Book Reference: The Girls of Riyadh

Book Reference: The Girls of Riyadh

By: Rajaa Al-Sanea

This controversional book has been restricted for Saudi Arabia because of the content and the fact that going on in this country, which exposed in this book. The characters in this book was based on real stories, each with their own conflict in life and love.

The book was telling us about the life of four young ladies in Saudi Arabia. Just like the other girl in this country, they always dream about perfect romantic love story for their lives. Too bad to tell, their dreams weren’t happened as they've wished for. Each of their marriage left them in tears. They always trying to solve the problems and share to each other, yet the culture and the rigid religion values had them left aside over and over again.

The story was a little cliché just like another book about Arabian girl which always trapped by their rigid cultural values and hurt by their own lovers. But then again, Al Sanea had done a great work by writing the novel in a different way. 

What you can get by read it are knowledge and information about what is life in Saudi Arabia; how the culture grabs individual freedom, how the rigid value drops women spirits and even how the government emphasizes those values in everyday life. Also in this book, you can find that the teenagers are not allowed to hanging around outside their house for later than 07.30 p.m., especially with sexually opposite person.

The book could really make us see how teenager’s life in Arabic culture (yeah!!! U’ll be surprised by their way of living) and also love life in Saudi Arabia from different angle. The book is much recommended for you who like to observe another country’s culture and values that came along with that. As for you who really into romance novel, I guess this isn’t for you because the story isn’t just about the cheesy romance afterall. The last words from me are for you the reader and book consumer, this book is totally must have!!!

O'oohh...there was SHIT! literally!!!

Jadi Begini... sebenarnya kejadian misteri ini sudah lama terjadi, namun karena kesibukan menumpuk baru bisa membaginya sekarang.

Pada hari itu hari Minggu (tanggal dirahasiakan karena lupa), saya akan berencana bertemu dengan beberapa sahabat dan teman lama. Kebetulan dalam acara tersebut, teman kami yang bernama Puspa akan mengadakan Pernikahan minggu depannya dan dia akan memberitahukan ttg acaranya hari itu.

Karena saya yang paling rajin, dilligent, cerdas dan berintelektual, otomatis saya datang paling awal. karena saya juga agak beser, maka tujuan utama adalah toilet FOODCOURT TP, karena ngantri saya cari2 pintu yang bisa dibuka (kebiasaan tolol wanita, meski yakin toilet itu ada 'gangguan' kita pasti tetap berusaha mendobrak pintu2 itu dan berharap sedikit keberuntungan bahwea toilet itu kosong dan berfungsi baik) dan tentu saja hasilnya nihil...

Saat akhirnya orang didepan saya selesai 'urusannya' saya otomatis masuk kedalam, namunn... betapa kagetnya saya saat mata perawan saya ini menangkap sesuatu yang SANGAT AMAT BESAR (u/ ukuran kotoran manusia) mengapung di dalam WC... Dengan segenap hati akhirnya saya misuh2 (kali ini secara oral bukan dalam hati lagi)... NAmun karena saya mandiri dan cukup independen saya berusaha menyiram WC tersebut. Percobaan pertama...It didnt even move!!!, percobaan kedua...hanya serpihan kecil dari sesuatu yang BESAR itu yang berhasil melayang2 disekeliling air tetapi WC masih didominasi benda yang sebesar dildo itu (maybe twice larger than that!!!)... SIA-SIA sudah niatan saya dan saya segera keluar dari bilik toilet itu, karena gak lucu kan kalo mbak2 cleaning serv disitu ngira saya yang buang hajat!!!

Setelah saya keluar mbak2 cleaning serv curiga kenapa saya keluar tanpa sempat menutup pintu toilet, dia pun masuk dan beberapa saat ada didalam bilik toilet tsb (tampaknya dia juga berusaha melakukan 'niatan baik' spt yg sblmnya saya lakukan) namun tentu saja mbak2 tsb keluar dgn wajah masam dan ditekuk-tekuk. Sampai akhirnya dia kembali dengan membawa seember besar air untuk menyiram THAT GIGANTIC SHIT!

Wowww, that was really BIG GIGANTIC SHIT. and that's not it. there were two of them!!! GOD!!!

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Dian Ayu Kusuma Dewi

Damn..
Aq br slese maem,mbok sms cpt2 buka n0temu ini dar..iuuuu,i wanNa thr0w-up

Yesterday at 10:46pm · Delete

Andika Gtg Ryg

Oalah..nasibmu din

Today at 12:23am · Delete

Ayu Laras Sari

Din,maaf..tp aq pernah menjadi salah satu pelakunya!
Di kamar mandi kantorku!
Wakakakakaa...!!!

I did flush,but it didn't work! What can I do then?? Hahahahaaa...

Today at 6:07am · Delete

Dinda Minardi

@Dian: maaf yan... hahahaa
@Dika: rejeki banget yo... :)))
@Ayu: dasar kon yu'... tapi aku yakin gak seGEDE yang tak liat!!! EWWW... n apakah doni tau ttg kelakuan minusmu ini???

Today at 11:51am · Delete

Yenni Fitri

Wah keberuntunganmu itu din.. Jarang2 kan dpt 'keberuntungan' segede itu hahaha.. Tp btapa baiknya kmu din berusaha utk menutupi aib org tsb dgn cr menyiramnya..
Kalo aq paling lgsg tak tinggal pergi..
Krn aq ga mau dikira sbg pelakunya..
Wahahahahaha

11 hours ago · Delete

Bayuseta Jati

Aq juga pernah jdi pelaku waktu layover d changi singapore...... Aaawww.... Romantic....

2 hours ago · Delete

Ayu Laras Sari

Sweeeettt......

Wakakakaaaaa....

about an hour ago · Delete

Dinda Minardi

@Yeni: karena aku kebelet pipis banget...
@Bayu: kok iso romantic? did u make out with the janitor??
@Ayu: U are a total sinner... hahahaha

about an hour ago · Delete

Khumairatul Adawiyah

gak seperti ayu dan bayu. aku pernah senasib denganmu din.... melihat "itu" mengapung di wc waktu aku mau pake toilet di prambanan.
sayangnya, aku gak sebaik kamu. aku tinggal pergi sambil teriak2 dan pasang muka yg sama sekali gak manis. uuuuggggghhhh.......

37 minutes ago · Delete

Dinda Minardi

@Ira: hahaha, kita kayak didzalimi yooo... aku sih kaget karena tuh barang GUEDEE banget Ra, aku sampe heran kok bisa ya barang segede itu keluar??? ampe sekarang aku gak abis pikiirrr... hahaha

36 minutes ago · Delete

Khumairatul Adawiyah

yup, sampe bikin lupa sama "urusan" kita sendiri ya din.....
yg lebih bikin aku penasaran adalah.... wanita macam apa yg bisa mengeluarkan barang se-GEDE itu.... ckckckck...

26 minutes ago · Delete

Done and Gone

what has been said is done
what has been done is gone
nothing has been found
no one count

Let It Be

Just Let It Be...
For Better or For Worse

Just Let It Be...
For Laughter and Tears

Just Let It Be...
For The Pain Inside and The Love Outside

Just Let It Be...
For Me and For You

Just Let Me Be...
For Our Sake
Please!

I waNt Love Rite Now...NOw...Now!!!

Woooww,
and the feeling is getting bigger when u hear love songs!
and all of songs that contains these words:
-baby
-love
-miss

story of my life, i guess! (*crying a river*)

*dont believe any above!

This Is What I Really Want., well Kinda...

"As per tomorrow i'll be an unemployed lady with a silly hobby ever (crocheting). Well it's kinda what I want for now, since I really cant stand for the stagnant salary and i felt like im unchallenged at all, not to mention i cant explore my abilities in this job. Many of friends had said that I should get another one, I could have had job better than this, but this is my first job, thats why i keep it for this 6 months. My first job, it's like my first love..." (blahblahblah)

Well, today (31/08/09) will be my last day in this office. the office was cool actually, with modern atmosphere and deluxe facilitation, it is absolutely providing a conducive environment. Not to mention that it located outside Surabaya (u're gonna need something that really really amusing, such as good toilet!). Well u might say that it is in the middle of industrial jungle, so very hectic and hot!!!


Since few days before, i feel like i have nothing left here. If previously I have a believe that I will make it, well not in past few days. It's like God has opened my mind. That's why I intended to resign after this contract. But God really makes my job easier, the company is letting me go, well i guess it doesnt matter for me, cos the result is still the same. I WONT BE HERE per SEPTEMBER.

Few Reason Why I Should Leave this Company:
1. I have no potential improvement here, no matter how many reply I've got. It's like they just playing me, only ask for prices then left me with an empty hope (hahahaha, very hyperbola!!!)
2. I feel like I can get so much better than this, well Im smart, convident, fast learner and very good in team, not to mention that i live for challenge! (yeah!!! That's why i survived for 24 years of my life!)
3. The Boss words really hurting me, he acted like he is the most generous boss in this world, that's why i feel like i dont have to make me look better in front of him. And perhaps thats why im the one who terminated. Well maybe u should check on our salary, Boss!!! I dont really care anyway!
4. Im just really not into this company anymore.

Nevertheless, i really like this job actually, but not with thesalary... Dude!!! I need more, way MORE!!!Atleast you have to give me a way more fun job with that range. I cant get my french course, I cant shop enough, and I dont even have my own Bank Account.
God, it took 6 months to realize that i'm really not for this company! But i still intended to apply as an export marketing into another company, or maybe a writer!!!

Oh and for the one who rejected me for junior writer position, well u can suck it up!!! Im not from english department, but honey, it took more than just grammar to make a good writings. And we, International Relations under-graduated got more TOEFL score than English Department did!!! (well some of us!) lol... no offense, dear!

Oh and I hate MALAYSIA!!! (this is my blog, so i can say wa'eva i want)

I LOVE HANGING OUT WITH MA BESTFRIENDS!!!

Tomorrow (Sunday, 30/08/09) was very beautiful, cos Im outing with my BESTFRIENDS.
We were doing all d thing we usually do; such as embarassing stuffs, taking a lots of silly pictures with silly poses in it, having dinner and taking pictures at the same time and giggling to each other. It was like we have nothing to worried about.
But Reality bites!!! Within our laughs; giggles; and silly behaviour we got pain inside...OK, maybe I just overrate it! Well it just there is a lil bit of unluck in every each of us as following:

-Dian Ayu Kusuma Dewi, a very angelic look lady got robbed a nite before while ridin' motorcyle with her colleague. She lost 3 cellphone, wallet, ATM, ID CARD, and her braveness to tell her mom the truth. Owh, hunny... :(

-Abelito Yudha Perwira, a very cute as hell babyboy has just resigned from his job since few days ago, and UNTIL NOW havent got his last salary inside his account!Shitty Situation it is!! Maybe U Should date ur Boss, yudh... L.O.L :))))

-Bayuseta Jati, the one with the biggest salary for an entry level and an angelic eyelashes(n for that u're a bitch...), feels like he doesnt like his job! Yeah, it is shitty too since you need to FEEL ur job!

-Ayu Laras Sari, an in love lady... Well she got nothing to sorry about, since she still got her job even if it's very cruciating (once again, I overrate it...) not to mention that she's in LOVE...merde! :)

-Siti Lathifa, a mommy image lady just got recovered from her illness, may u have a good health always, darling... :)

-Putri Aswari, emmm... I dunno what's her problem really... hahaha :))))) maybe doesnt have facebook is her biggest problem!!!

-Me???, named Prima Adinda Minardi, as per tomorrow i'll be an unemployed lady with a silly hobbies ever (knitting). Well it's kinda what I want for now, since I really cant stand for the stagnan salary and i felt like im unchallenged at all, not to mention i cant explore my abilities into max in this job. Many of friends said that I should get another one, I could have had job better than this, but this is my first job, thats why i keep it for this 6 months. My first job, it's like my first love... i made my first penny from this lousy job-they said. for further story please read above writing... :)

-Tha Absent Friends, Aditya Gusfariyanto, he's been so busy he even absent twice!!!

What Im trying to say here is... I really love my friends, I love to be young, I love to laugh with them. Im not saying that we dont have problems, well we do have problems as i mentioned above, bunch of 'em. But I can make sure that we can still laughs when we meet them and hear their JOKES, even in our breakdown moments!

:)

You're the Setter No One Else

Don't be angry and drowned in sad
Cos no one meant to be led
Find your path and grip your grid
Cos everyone meant to LEAD

Don't be happy yet satisfied
You haven't done well if it just 'alright'
Be the best for yourself
You're the SETTER no one else!

Tanpa Judul (Mati)

Tanpa Judul (Mati)


Padahal masih pagi,
dia sudah bermimpi untuk mati.
Pura-pura saja dia bahagia,
didalam banyak derita.
Jika mati memang tujuannya,
maka biarlah sekali ini saja dalam hidupnya,
dia mampu raih mimpinya.


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Dead

It was still early really

He dreamed to die already

All it is only the pretence of happy

Inside, only misery

If dead is what he aimed to

Then let him have it, though

It will be his first wish ever comes true 

Can't Say

I'm a poet
I could say about anything
I could say about pain
I could say about sad
I could say about cheer
I even could say about Love...

I wonder why...
Why I'm wordless bout you?

SEPI

Sepi

Bangunkan aku saat fajar pergi,
Saat semua orang terlelap,
Dan saat dunia beristirahat.

Hingga bisa kulupakan
Betapa sunyinya aku diantara keramaian,
Betapa sampahnya aku diantara kehidupan

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Deserted

Wake me up when the dawn has left

When everyone fallen for sleep

And the world in resting

So I can aside for awhile

Aside how muted I am in crowd

Aside how useless my existence between lives

If You Ever

If you ever leave my heart

please shut the door and lock it down

cos while you're gone

I don't want to be found

Practically Insane

I'm practically insane...

Sipping on an empty hope

Swallowing an empty dream

Wandering in an empty thought

Tempted in an empty lust


I'm practically insane !

IF

Well...

If I'm to fall, I'd fall only for you

If I'm to lost, I'd lost only with you

If I'm to be broken, I'd be broken protecting you

If I am to die, I'd die saving you

LIGHT

I found shelter
Deep inside your eyes
I am better
Just to find you by myside
Just hold me tight
Never let go
Please stay and be my light...

No One But You

And when I fall
I want no one to help me...
I want no one to save me...
but you

And when I lost
I want no one to find me...
I want no one to guide me...
but you

And when I broken
I want no one to heal me...
I want no one to hug me...
but you

The Wings of Love

Without anytime I will get you 

Just arrange your words and say you love me too
Wherever you are
Whatever you do
I will always be there even if it's only in my mind
Cos my wings of love
Will be there for you

He's Gone

While I'm burning with this new love
He walked away from me
I try to stop him, but the resistance is absolute!

Stop Acting Like You Care!!!

Well as u know my frens, i got this hectic and heavy situation. And yesterday at night surf on Facebook, i had this chat with one of my fren, well 'another' friend! (the one that never text you, never say hello and never know bout your life, cos... they just do not exist, actually!)

And the jerk said something that could make you vomit and laugh to cry at the same time!! Dude, who the FUCK are YOU??? U dont even know me and my family, ASSie!! He said that as the eldest daughter i should taking care of my family, I have to be there for them, I have to cheer up my mom when she is sad, I have to support my family as my best!!!
DUH!!! U such an asshole, u dont even know me, u just one sick bastard, the most hypocrite person i've ever know!!! Dont u just talk about shit, assie!!!

Now tell me what would you've done if u were me??? Cos I done nothing, i just said 'thanx'!!

YES, I'M AN ASS!!! I hate myself!!!

HAHAHAHA!!! F-ing FUNNY STORIES!!

Nah, ini ada beberapa cerita dari beberapa sumber. Kesamaan dari cerita-cerita tsb adalah mereka masing2 grogi ato gugup dalam menghadapi situasi saat itu. Nmun di akhir crita anda yang menentukan apakah mereka grogi ato mereka BNR2 bodoh!! Well, read this then you tell me!!!

1. Kisah pertama:

So, adeku punya temen dan si temen ini punya kakak. karena kakaknya lumayan cantik maka dia ditaksir ama banyak orang. Tadinya nih kaka pretty pilih2 ma orang yang ngajakin dia kluar. Nah, saat ada satu org cowok dengan etnis Madura (bukan bermaksud rasial/etnisitas, this identity reveal really needed to make this story funnier!). Nah, sekali lagi karena kaka pretty ini ditaksir mas2 madura dia gak brani nolak karena takut digorok (skali lagi, yang merasa marah, then prove to us that these stereotype was wrong!! (",).

Ktakutan pun berujung pada maunya si mbak cantik diajak ngemaal. Sesampainya di Mall mbak pun seneng karena dibeliin banyak barang di department store retail named MATAHARI, akhirnya si mbak agak terkesima dong, uda tampang lumayan manis loyal pula...

Saat ngantri di kasir, si mbak agak sumringah dan gak sabar untuk nunggu kisah 'belanja' berikutnya, setelah sampe meja kasir,

mbak2 kasir nanya: ada kartu matahari? (si cewek mesem-mesem aje, uda dapet sandal plus baju)

Mas: gak ada.

Mbak kasir: Ok

Mas: em kalo kartu Simpati? SAYA PAKE' SIMPATI

ANNNNJJJRIIIITTTTTTTTT!!!

Dalam hati mbak cantik berang dan bersumpah nggak akan jalan ama cowok ini lagi. Now u decide, is he nervous or he's just STUPID???

Kisah Kedua:

Ini dari aku sendiri, saat itu gw ada intvw di salah satu persh. seluler di Indonesia, nah karena uda intvw kedua dan ini intvw job pertama gw, so pasti gw berusaha seasyik dan se-gaul mungkin jadi orang. Namun semua itu justru menjerumuskan pada gagalnya intv,

Paknya: Kamu bisa sebutkan kekuaranganmu apa?

GW: (jangan harap aku bilang 'kekurangan saya gendut' IT WOULD ONLY HAPPEN IN a ZILLION YEAR FURTHER!!) Otomatis aku jawab, oh aku orangnya moody

Paknya: Ok, kayak gimana tuh?

GW: yah contohnya kayak gini PAS adek saya NGGARAIN saya, saya marah gitu. apalagi PAS saya lagi ngerjain skripsi. kan MANGKEL tuh!!

Yup, usah yang terlalu dipaksakan membuahkan gw masuk dalam kategori ndueso!!! dan yup I didnt get the job!!

Now tell me, was i stupid or just nervous??

Jennifer Aniston and John Mayer Broke-Up???

Berhubung aku sedang mencapai tingkat stagnan di kantor dan nggak tau lagi mesti ngapain, maka gw mutusin untuk menghibur diri dengan gosip2 terbaru artis hollywood. Meskipun nggak se-skandal Saiful Jamil dan Kiki Fatmala yang prekes2an pantat, namun yah quite entertain, or should i say, SAD!! The sweet person like Jennifer havent found her soulmate in her 40 years old life? Well, she's nice, funny, and smart, duh! who doesnt want her???

Seperti yang tertulis di salah satu blog E! Online magazine,,, terdapat kabar bahwa Jennifer Aniston dan John Mayer broke-up. Meskipun pasangan yang terkenal seringkali putus-nyambung ini dikabarkan bubar, namun berita terbaru sangatlah mengagetkan!!! (Sok KenaL)
Gini nih berita selengkapnya, in Bahasa of course!!!

Jadi setelah mbak Aniston ini balik dari promo film terbaru yang di Indonesia DVD bajakannya gak ori2 (Marley and Me) ini nyampe ke State minggu kemaren. Ada salah satu Source yang mengatakan, "Dia putus dengannya saat Aniston kembali dari tour Eropa-nya". Jubir Aniston belum berkomentar apa2, sedangkan jubir Mayer memutuskan untuk menghindari membicarakan kehidupan pribadi Mayer.

Apa Kata Gank keduany???

Seorang kawan mereka mengatakan bahwa seharusnya tidak secepat itu diambil kesimpulan bahwa mereka putus selamanya. karena seperti yang tlah diketahui, kabar ini bukanlah kali pertama mereka 'terpisah'.

Namun fakta lain mengatakan...
Aniston baru2 ini membuka ttg kehidupan pribadi dan cintanya pada majalah UK, YOU. "Siapa yang bilang kalo smua hubungan harus untuk selamanya? That's hoping too much," Kata Aniston. "I think every relationship is a world unto itself." Sedangkan saat ditanya tentang menemukan partner sejati, mbak Aniston menjawab, "I don't have one and I ont think it exists" (Very sad it is, these words come from her lips, the one whose always teach us about love in her movies!!).

Aniston dan Mayer pertama kali mempublikasikan kisah mereka pada akhir bulan lalu at the OSCAR. Saat di backstage KODAK, Aniston mengatakan pada Gayle King (u/ Oprah's Show) bahwa dia "very happy." Kemudian, malamnya mereka bergandengan tangan di acara post-show party.

Akhir2 ini Aniston ditemukan di hotel yang sama di Terrace restaurant. Dia akan berangkat ke New York untuk syuting film terbarunya The Baster dengan jason Bateman, sebagai wanita berusia 40 tahun, single dan memutuskan untuk memiliki anak dari sahabatnya sendiri.

Sedangkann Mayer??? he's working on a new album!

(Originally published March 11, 2009 at 8:15 p.m. PT)

HOW PEOPLE THINK??

Yah, sebenernya apa yang bikin orang mikir? Kehidupan yang abis dijalani, kehidupan yang sedang dijalani atau kehidupan yang akan dijalani??

Kalo menurutku nih, dari pandangan sok tahu-ku... pembentukan pikiran orang dibedakan kedalam 3 fase:

Fase pertama fase single:
Fase single ini dijalani oleh seseorang mulai dari remaja sampai kehidupan single-nya berakhir. Pada fase ini manusia hanya memikirkan tentang apa yang sedang dijalani, semuanya tentang fun! hal ini dikarenakan manusia single belum berpikir secara matang akan apa yang dijalaninya dan untuk siapa dia berbuat. Motivasi yang dipikirkan hanya mengenai diri sendiri. Oleh karena itu pemikiran yang terbentuk oleh fase ini adalah pemikiran sempit, cenderung gegabah dan memiliki orientasi singkat.

Fase kedua adalah fase double:
Fase double ini dijalani seseorang yang telah berkeluarga, saat masa - masa ini manusia memikirkan masa depan lebih banyak dari dia memikirkan masa kini. Selalu berusaha menggapai apa yang ada didepan daripada menghargai apa yang sudah didapat. Motivasi yang dipikirkan tidak hanya untuk dia sendiri namun juga untuk keluarga, suami untuk istri; istri untuk suami (dengan 'bonus' anak tentu saja). Pemikiran yang terbentuk oleh fase ini adalah pemikiran yang berorientasi jangka panjang dan lebih bertanggung jawab, namun cenderung kurang melihat apa yang sebenarnya sudah dimiliki. Sifat orientasi kedepan bisa menghasilkan dua keputusan, yaitu keputusan resiko besar dan resiko kecil; keuntungan besar dan kecil; dll dengan menggunakan ukuran tertentu. Bisa dibilang saat fase ini 'angka' adalah segalanya.

fase ketiga adalah fase stagnan:
Fase stagnan bisa terjadi di masa tua, masa remaja, maupun masa dewasa. Fase stagnan ditandai dengan adanya pertanyaan "sebenarnya untuk apa saya hidup". Fase ini membuat manusia menilai dirinya sebagai sesuatu yang kecil dan tidak berguna, meskipun sebenarnya dia memiliki harta melimpah. Fase ini membuat manusia selalu menengok kebelakang, ke masa2 yang dinilai lebih indah dari saat ini, biasanya fase ini disebabkan oleh beberapa traumatis emosional karena ditinggal seseorang yang dicintai; kekecewaan mendalam pada lingkunan sekitar dan kekecewaan mendalam pada diri sendiri.

Nah, setelah baca hal2 diatas, kira2 kamu ada di fase yang mana??

Single/double or stagnan???

What Coffee Could do For You!!

Every morning i always drink a cup of milk coffee, you know... just to bust up my energy and as an effort to keep my eyes open widely. When i'm at the office i always trying my best not to drink coffee, cos hey... you could only drink coffee once a day, and this is for your own health... (this is what i got in mind, hehehe). But then again i wanna see if there is any advantage to drink coffee regularly? and i put myself into somekind of short inquiry, cos i only read from one source (yeah you can find it in Google, off course - i forgot the site!). And what i got is really incredible!!!
here are the things that u could really avoid by consuming this great brew!!
1. bust up ur mood
2. help you more concentrate to your job
3. reduce stress
4. as a medication for a head-ache

USUAL??? TOO COMMON??? READ THESE!!

5. reduce risk of diabetes type 2
6. reduce risk of cancer
7. reduce risk of having a heart attack, and heart problem
8. good for asthma
9. increase athleticivism and mood, helps u tobuild muscles (yeah!!!)
10. COFFEE also have a great antioxidant

Good for your health if u consume coffee in more than 2-3 cups a day (precisely, 6 cups!!)
Yeah, i couldnt believe it also!

Those are the advantages of consuming one of the famous brew in the world... yes, I love Coffee, but i dunno if i have to drink more than 6 cups of coffee per day!!! GOD!

I still cant believe this articles... only FYI this article written professionally from the proven study in some countries... UNBELIEVABLE!!!