My Book is Published

Here is my book! 

You can order it from nulisbuku.com. Here's the link 

http://nulisbuku.com/books/view/life-love-and-luck

My First of Others

This is my first -and hopefully- of others. Started in 1998, I’ve been writing poetry since. Some of them with dates, some of them just came on a plate. This book is filled by three factors; Words of Wishes, Bitter Enlightenment and Sweet Clueless.

I believe even the happiest smile ever tasted bitter before, every mourned heart ever touched by laughters and we are how we present ourselves or not, in society.

Beneath those words I freed myself; I empathized and fed my emotion, I’ve pulled my darkest mind to the surface and dragged my angelic thoughts to the depth.

In the end, I can only hope you would understand, that in words we can swim and dream. If you can enjoy the swim then I’m living a dream.

Darn You, Mister by Dinda Minardi

Darn You, Mister by Dinda Minardi

It will be Mourned by Dinda Minardi

It will be Mourned by Dinda Minardi

You Trap Us inside Your Jars by Dinda Minardi

You Trap Us inside Your Jars by Dinda Minardi

Bound Hearts by Dinda Minardi

Bound Hearts by Dinda Minardi

My First Poetry Book - Life, Love and Luck

My first book cover.
Awesome, yes? :)

He is a Hero

He is a Hero

(06/08/2011)

Leader’s defame, one thing we can’t resist

Remember, that One ever suspected communist,

Another One hid behind father’s name,

Next One, took his seat for granted,

And this One, trying too hard to fame

But those were nothing wrong, we had red

Never born clean politicians were, I believe it

Or they were, until they captured in tricky mist

Why hating him so much?

Look at yourselves and your bluntly words

Keep saying name of God, to got us touched

Please! We already know your chords

Atleast he led us to roar back, to set the trend

Now, you can’t even fulfill your promises

What? Would’ve never thought back then?

Run a country none like dealing private crisis

Please show us more hypocrisy

So you can add more sugar to your so called democracy

Despite of his corruption judication,

He faught well for this country

Now tell me, which politician hasn’t tasted that seduction?

I believe if you recalculate,

His efforts will overly climb his mistakes

No need all the debates,

He deserves to be called hero, that’s it!

*About former President of Indonesia, Soeharto (1921-1998).

I believe that every people who faught for one’s country deserved the HERO tag, despite of all his mistakes and corruption or whatsoever they’ve said -which in these days still a trend.-

            I’m aware that this writing will have a lot of critics. Well, I just spoke up what I observed. If you’re not agree with it, make your own verse, that’s it! J

Gloom Love

Gloom Love

(19/08/2011)

We fought a lot for no reason

Can’t believe that our last was my tomb

In the end,

I will always search for you

But for you, all I only gave was gloom

Changed

(22/07/2011)

I look at your inside

Definitely different from your outside

I try to stir you and see what will happen

Will you still you or hide behind weapon

You change color straight away

I’m disappointed in a way

Failure

(01/08/2011)

He catches dreams in struggling minds

He extracts them into a darkened one

Sends them back into our thoughts

Will haunt our reality and kill us slowly

Not going crazy is more than lucky!

Does he even exist?

It was my same question

Once, he grabbed my wrist

His grey abstract existence,

Only I could see

My luck has fleed freely

I gave my left strength as a wimp

I can feel he writes my obituary

My hopes has turned to grim scheme

Dream or Reality

(03/08/2011)

(03/08/2011)

I just realized
My life’s been cheated on me
My luck is never lucky
It is never myside it belongs to be
Fright dreams gives me a goodnight kiss
Me, not the same since
Friends act like enemies
Family, they treat me in brutality
Who am I? Is it still the same with Me?
Was it the dream or reality that took my sanity?
Are they real, or I deny them to be,
Since those are too painful for me

Mirror (Cermin)

Cermin

Kupandangi cermin didepan berdiriku
Akankah bayangan itu berubah?
Mungkinkah bayangan itu memudar?
Bayangan itu senyata nafasku
Bayangan itu sepasti lukaku
Semakin dalam dukaku saat melihatmu
Cermin fana pengungkap dusta

Sembunyikanlah nyatamu
Aku malu dan pilu
Pudarkanlah bayangmu
Aku luka dan berduka
Retakkanlah wujudmu!

Aku ingin melupakannya
Bayang semu diriku
Bayang semu senyata dustaku
Bayang semu senyata dosaku


Mirror

(23/07/2011)

I stare at the mirror in front of my stand
Would my reflection changed?
Is there any maybe it will be faded?
This reflection as real as my breath
This reflection as precise as my sad,
And it gets deeper when I see you,
The disguise revealing mirror makes me blue

Please, hide your reality
I’m embarassed and in no clue
Fade me my reflection
I’m wounded and escaped from truth
Break me yourself, I’m begging you!

I want to break me,
My reflection in disguise,
The disguised me in falsity
My disguised me needs clarity!

Option

(24/06/2011)

Postpone everything and be nothing

Or

Do everything and be something

Tears

(11/08/2005)

In every single tear I can see you

In every single tear I can taste you

Describe it yourself how big I miss you

You aware very well how much I want you

It’s only a little favor I need from you

Please take these tears away, I’ll thank you

The tears that remind me of you

America, the Melting Pot for Freedom

(20/06/2011)

Ones might know the value for tolerance

Let’s ask Americans for their multicultural life

How has it been?

Are they living in a camouflage screen?

Ones might throw their identities

Let’s ask Americans for their multicultural life

Should we keep our ethnicities unseen?

Or we keep our sanities in between?

Ones might keep their entities

Let’s ask Americans for their multicultural life

Can they socialize easily?

Or they only do chat briefly?

Ones might blend-in perfectly

Let’s ask Americans for their multicultural life

Can they act in melting pot fairly?

Or they mind their popularities only?

YOU

(04/03/2005)

I can write what I want

I can write what I think

I can write what I know

I did, write what I saw

I just can’t,

Can’t write what I see…

You!

The Bads & The Unsads

If you care the others

You’ll be cared by them

If you care with love

You’ll be loved by them

None of caress lives for the bads

But not every caress fed by the unsads

As long as the sad has caused the good

There won’t be a big stone blocking your boat

That will bring you to the love, that gold

The Bads & The Unsads

If you care the others

You’ll be cared by them

If you care with love

You’ll be loved by them

None of caress lives for the bads

But not every caress fed by the unsads

As long as the sad has caused the good

There won’t be a big stone blocking your boat

That will bring you to the love, that gold

About Care

Everyone needs caress not careless

Everyone wants happiness not sadness

None of ones wants to be unseen, but to be famous

Everyone needs to be believed

Not just being relieved

Everyone needs a solve

Not a lot of words

Everyone knows about care

But not everyone makes it fair

Everyone knows how to care

But not everyone can run it dare

I’ll See You Again

I’ll See You Again

There are tears on my eyes

Streaming away like a falls

Your love wasn’t as that precise

And I, don’t even have a word, just cry

It seems too far away

To break my heart with one slay

Friend, thanks for been a friend

I know I wouldn’t survive without you

Now,

After you gone, I’m getting string

I know you’re gone but not for long

Cos I’ll see you again

Up there,

Up in heaven

Triangle Love

Triangle Love

Both of them are my friends

They fall in love each other

And I’m the cupid man

Time’s getting far and their love won’t be over

I guess this is the deal

Could you realize of what I feel?

Could you save and make me healed?

No, you could not

Cos I love him, the one that you love

Help Me

I saw my own reflection

Stood still next to my own devotion

I looked the anger inside my eyes

It burned myself and was covered by lies

Inside me, I screamed

So loud I couldn’t feel my ears

I was hoping, was in a dream

So much I could feel my tears

That was why I’m here

I lost myself without you

I’ve felt my biggest fear

Please help me to get through

No Goodbye

I love you!

Maybe that’s the words

That I can say to you

No one will separate me from you

Don’t worry,

Cos I won’t leave you

Someone in my neighbor life

Just made my dream seems alive

Although the time seems to run

I know you’ll always be my sun

Two and a half days

Already made me falling for you

Just listen to what I say

Cos I won’t make you feel blue

Unfair

Unfair

They have eyes

But they never see

They have ears

But they never hear

I, only depends on my hands and feet

The can settle their needs good

I have no crime to taste and meet

Which in their lives are really should

Everybody hates me

Everybody away from me

What have I done?

Should I be gone

And never be seen by one?

Maybe that’s the better way

And in this dimension I lay

That I have never ever met rays

Which always brighten up their days

Is this what I get?

Or just the world that forget

To give me what I shoud had

For I never did what has called bad

Mother

You’re the light of my life

You’re the beat of my heart

You’re my sense in my starve

I hope, I always have you by myside

You’re the spirit of my beating heart

You always cling on my trembling part

When my hollow turns to sorrow,

You’re my only hero

For me, you are my hallow

Mother, I can never say thanks enough

Unique Relationship

(15/06/2011)

Shhh… there’s no need to harsh about
What I told you at first
“You’re here holding my heart
And I’m here after your purse”

No...No need to count our age
No need to assemble our lives
We're not in a relationship's cage
We're in our hidden and sacred hive

We will act in silence
Let no world find out
I can only give my persistence
We’re important for each other a lot

The effect of this is sweet
You got your satisfying pleasure
I got my own treat
But this is only this, just want to make sure

Tolerance and Recognition in Difference

(14/06/2011)

From Singapore to Indonesia

To be a peaceful melting-pot country, we try

To admit what race you are without shy

And still able to be you without a lie

Exactly, that’s what we see in America

The united states that filled with hundreds ethnicities

Maybe even thousands and still keep their entities

Have you seen anything more colorful than this

Rainbow in humanities, no time for conflict crisis

Where all skin colors cover earth surface in degradation

With our hands clasp together singing winning revolution

People’s most beautiful innovation

Tolerance in Difference and Recognition

Charismatic in Fame

(14/06/2011)

From Brad Pitt to him

I changed my taste, it seemed

A guy with red hair and pale skin

Not to mention his natural freckles

Practically, those sound not that keen

But again, his roles are miracles

Can you watch ‘Dream Catcher’ actors

Without laying a concern on him

Can you observe his ‘Band of Brothers’

Without got stunned by him

Can you track his ‘Life’ factors

Without wish for a husband like him

You cannot, can you?

That’s what I feel too

He’s just too precious

To be missed by blinkings

He’s too gorgeous

To be cut by commercial linkings

I know you know who I mean

Or you never heard his name

His charisma, I’ve seen

He, surely, more than just a fame

(Inspired by Damian Lewis)

What If

(12/06/2011)

What if I’m the one who cheats

What if you’re the one who hurt

Will our love be departed wish

Or you’ll give me chance for another start

What if you’re the one who love me so

Will I ask you to go

Will you beg me to stay

Or you’ll be the one for away

What if you love me more

Instead of lusted by her

So what am I here for?

You ripped me to the core

Now I’ll leave for sure

We’re not for each other

My love is too pure

For you to ignore

Broken Heart

My life was great

Moved on perfect

There’s none of fake

Really fantastic

But now it’s ruined off

Just because of one lost call

She called him, the one that I love

She, the one that I hate, now definitely loves him

Dangerous Love

Bring here, bring here

Bring your heart

Come to me

I’ve lived in dusty pain

I’ve absorbed dirty lies

Just like what I’ve been taught and trained

Then,

Why are you still kicking?

Me, just trembling

Why you are yelling?

I was just drawling

Am I good enough for you?

You’re the one I always go to

Should I bleed to tell you I love you

Allahuakbar

(10/06/2011)

Once we said Your name in our hearts

Allahuakbar

We will say It all over again

Terrorists say Your name in anger

Before they kill others

That’s their faultiest fault

Once we found You in our souls

Allahuakbar

We have the path with Your directions

Not the brutal one they’ve been told

Allahuakbar

Indeed, in this life, to You only we surrender

The Lord of All

You are The One

You are The Law

In everyside of this universe claw

To You we bow

Sometimes

You’re not our number one

But we know for sure

We’re still your dearest daughters and sons

Someway

We will always come to You

Our Lord of all law

Lord of happiness and sorrow

Heart’s Lighter in our darkest

Gentlest Touch in our toughest

Please keep us from clueless and sadness

Man of Sorrow

Traveling the time

Always searching for something

The tears will come

Without everyone thinking

Maybe God cursed me

Since I live in sorrow

Maybe only time can heal me

My life just like a borrow

Shall I regret it

If my life just like an arrow

Shall I forget it

Because my heart always in sorrow

Nothing to regret now

Since none to fight for now

Nothing is left now

To save my own self anyhow

I think even God too jaded to take me

Wanita

Saat lahir ditimang ibunya

Saat kecil wanita digendong ayahnya

Beranjak remaja wanita dipeluk kekasihnya

Kala dewasa wanita diikat getir hidupnya

Setelah menikah wanita diperlakukan istimewa,

Disiksa prianya

Apakah Cinta?

Jika mencintai lebih sering menangis

Jika dicintai lebih sering merintih

Dan apabila memiliki sama dengan menderita

Maka lebih baik aku sendiri

Where

I never wondering about something this much

I just need to know

Where can I find love?

Where will I find love?

Pure love

No games, no thoughts

Only love. Just love

This Day

This day

The day that I’ve waited forever

This day

The day that I’ve missed ever

This day

The main day of all

This day

The day I say I do!

Would You

(20/01/2011)

Nothing in this world is too expensive for you

I’d buy everything

Nothing in this world is too heavy for you

I’d do anything

Nothing in this world is too difficult for you

I’d work all the thing

Nothing in this world is impossible for you

Only for you! For you! Cos I love you

Now would you?

What about you?

Saat Kau Terlelap

(11/11/04)

Kutatap wajahmu

Masih cantik

Sedikit tersenyum, meski kutahu kau sangat lelah

Tampak kau nikmati mimpimu

Mimpi dalam duniamu sendiri

Tenang…damai…bahagia

Andai aku dapat mewujudkannya didunia nyata

Aku janji aku kan berusaha

Sehingga tidak kecewa kau lahirkanku ke dunia

Tampan

(11/11/04)

Sungguh tampan dirinya

Bagaikan wajah yang diukir tangan malaikat

Hati sebening kristal dan akal sejernih berlian

Langkah tegap, badan tegak

Kulit yang mempesona

Tutur yang santun dan akhlak yang terhormat

Keramahan yang memabukkan

Jika ada pria seperti ini

Sisakan satu untukku, Tuhan

Rumah Apung

Rumah Apung

(11/11/04)

Budak kecil tertawa riang

Diatas rumah yang bergoyang

Tinggal serumah dengan kasih sayang

Bukan berjalan tapi berenang

Dia merasa beruntung memiliki rumah layaknya ini

Dengan lahan luas, laut didekatnya, sungai dibawahnya

Tidak ada listrik hanya bulan dan bintang

Tetap saja dia riang

Tergusur, tidak dikenalnya

I Could

I could feel heaven

By imagining kissing your lips

I could feel breeze

By imagining touching your cheek

I could die then awaken

By feeling your touch

I could jump and levitate

By hearing your voice

I could reap my ribs

Just to make you smile

I could kill myself

Just to make you satisfied

That is big, my feeling for you

But I could break my own heart

If you know

That I do love you

I Love You

(Someday in the Past)

You make my heart jump by looking at me

You make my day bright by talking to me

You make my life beautiful by smiling at me

I’m stopped by your whisper, I’m burned by your touch

I’m filled with the thoughts of you

You…you…you…I’m in love with you

Time After Time

Time after time

Will cure me

After my own heart killing me

Turning by the time

You won’t still beside me

Maybe it’s not possible

But neither impossible

If you’re really my perfect card

You won’t separate our hearts

Eventhough in your heart

You will fight me

I still believe we won’t be apart

But again, you’ve left me

Time after time

Will cure me

After my own heart killing me

Turning by the time

I still hope you were here with me

Time after time

Curing in the perfect time

Loving you, is like running out of time

Time after time, please cure me…

Dearest Husband

Dearest Husband

Tap…tap…tap

I can hear you’ll be here

Going upstairs

Knock…knock…knock

I have you here

In front of me

The one you call dear

Plagh…plagh…plagh

I got your hand

Beside my stand

Waves up my head

Sniff…sniff…sniff

I see you leave

Behind your sleeves

I can still hear myself crying

But just too shy to set it high even after I tried

Thumpt…thumpt…thumpt

My heart racing, aching and bleeding

My dearest has just made a scar in my deepest part

Of my deepest heart

None

None

(2004)

Am I in an infinite dark?

I see none

I hear silence

I always try shouting

But I can’t hear anything

I always try to reach everything

But I can’t feel anything

It just quiet

But at all, I’m not deaf

Nothing’s left

I’m tired

A senseless me

In a helpless space

And unbearable time

Flawless

Flawless

(2004)

That man,

Makes me love him

Want him

Miss him

That man can show me how to treat him

Out of his imperfection

Unbelievable reaction

That man

Whose love I need to breathe

Whose presence I need to feel

Is unpretty

That man

The one I live with

The one I share my lips

The one I call my love

Is unpretty

My flawless unpretty lover

Desperate Heart

Desperate Heart

(11/11/03)

This whispering spound of sadness will take you away from me

I know that

This awful misery will chain my heart harshly

I know that

It is the time for the world to see who am I really are

Only slightest hope that you will stay beside me

I’m so tired to be a liar

But should I ignore my own desire?

So much pretence around us

But should I bury who makes me higher?

It is then,

The happy life is only a fairytale I’ll never in

You are gone leaving me with desperation hint

Beneath the Truths

Beneath the Truths

(2003)

Take me away

Pull out the slay

I want a lay, my final lay

My time is just one tick to get

And I left all my regrets

My grave has just been set

I’m now waiting for my death

Where’s my guardian angel?

Is there really any white lighter?

They are nowhere

Where’s my truth?

It is nowhere

Because for so long, I’ve lived beneath the lies

Because for too long, I’ve prayed out of my God

And for really long, I’ve digged inside my sad

Had I said don’t leave

But who would’ve cared?

Had I yelled don’t abandon me

But who would’ve shared?

Had I screamed don’t walk away from me

But who would’ve dared?

The truths are cruel

My happiness comes from sadness

My tears comes from cheerful

And my way comes from betray

Cos for so long

I’ve lived beneath the lies

I’ve prayed out of my God

And I’ve digged inside my sad

I’ve been living lies

Goddess

Goddess

(2002)

With such a beautiful dress

You came to me

Smiling at me

Waving and stealing the heart of me

Goddess,

Everything seems to be beast when you are here

Goddess,

Are you here to spread the peace?

Goddess,

You came from heaven above

Sent by the God

To teach me loving and caring

Your eyes shine like stars above

Encourage me for trying and winning

Dear God,

I have her here

There’s no more I have to fear

My life now always clear

I have her here as one of my dear

Worth

Worth

(2001)

Where am I?

Let me explain to you

There are a lot of beautiful creatures here

Where is this?

Let me tell you

There are three charming princes beside me

What is this place?

Let me describe you

Huge…Pretty…Charming…PEACEFULLY

Now I know, I’m in heaven

But wait, hey!

Why I just stopped by?

Why can’t I stay?

Where am I?

I’m in the journey

Deep dark and long journey

Here I am!

Where am I now?

Let me explain to you

It’s dark, starky, smokey, and scary

Dweep down here, now I know, I’m in…

Trace

(Des 2010)

As your heart forever untold

Your love forever onhold

As your pasion forever unspoken

Your desire forever unmoaned

As the emptiness is yours

Your life is the cost

Your existance leaves no trace

Indeed what you will face

My Sight

My Sight

(21/01/04)

I’ve been promising to myself

I won’t look anyside from my sight

I’ve been teaching that to myself

I won’t judge anyside from my sight

I’ve been reminding that to myself

I won’t change anyside from my sight

My sight is only a piece of broken brain

Searching for solution

Just to make it still work in pain

And to get better is not an option

I’ve been in too much suffer with my sight

I’ve seen too much hunger through my sight

I’ve met a lot of trouble by my sight

               

I won’t think from my sight

I won’t use my sight!

Lamunan

Lamunan

Seorang dengan cerutu ditangannya

Berjalan terseok tanpa arah

Dipandangnya lampu jalan yang begitu benderang

Mata tuanya menyipit menghalau terang

Dalam benaknya,

Andai dia hidup bersahaja

Dengan rumah yang sederhana, istri yang selalu melayaninya

Dan anak-anak yang patuh padanya

Diat tidak ingin hidup mewahnya ini

Dengan istri yang pura-pura buta dan tuli

Dan anak-anak yang rakus seperti babi

Klakson sopir menyadarkannya

Sampai tersedak paru-parunya

Berharap Tuhan memanggilnya

Agar dapat hidup baru dan belajar dari hidup lamanya

Namun ia tetap pada hidupnya

Karena belum saatnya surga untuknya

Secret

I am sure I will break my own heart

When you know I love you

That’s why it is a secret from the start

Eventhough my love so true

I’ll just see you from distant

Your happiness is what so important

Gadis

Seorang gadis berlari, berusaha hilangkan gelambir dibadannya

Harus ada, harus ada pejantan yang meliriknya

Dia berlari memutari taman kota

 Semua pandangan ada pada kulitnya yang bergetar

Tanpa peduli, semangatnya tetap terbakar

Sampai basah keringat hampir terkapar

Harus ada!

Indonesia

Hey…Sebentar, kakiku masih ngilu… Jantungku berdebar terlalu kencang.

Ayolah Indonesia…Nak tunggu ape lagi kau? Semua dah didepan tu. Ayo cepat!

Malaysia, organ-organku sudah rusak. Aku tak bisa berlari kencang. Organku tidak kompak.

Ganti saja organ kau itu dengan yang baru. Pergi minta pada dokter Amerika tu.

Lebih baik aku mati daripada jadi robotnya (lagi), Singapura.

Sombongnya…Lihat saja.

Semua teman Indonesia tertawa.

Tertawalah yang kencang kawan, anggap saja aku tak dengar. Amerika dokter kita, namun racunlah yang diberinya. Seluruh organku bertambah parah. Tetap aku berjalan walau harus melata sekalipun. Biarkan saja organku rusak, mungkin malaikat kan bagikan ajaibnya padaku. Ini janjiku, ku kan temui kalian diujung! Tunggu saja, jalan ini masih panjang... Ucap Indonesia sambil setengah merangkak diatas kerikil tajam.

Waktu berlalu, Indonesia masih berpeluh. Terlepas dari pengaruh? Makin dalam bergumul dengan peluru.

Kali ini peluru berselubung demokrasi, bukan materi.

Beginilah bangsa yang mudah terpengaruh. Siapa berani bertaruh, jika Indonesia kan tolak negara penuh pengaruh?

Terlambat

Terlambat

Sudah terlambat

Semua sudah terlambat

Keusangan dimana-mana

Hidup sudah berkarat

Tidak jasmani, tidak pula hatinya

Apalah arti naluri jika usang tlah sampai pada saatnya?

Bukan usang jika tanpa debu

Namun mungkinkah semua kan jadi baru?

Manalah bisa, meski BARU adalah tujuan kita

Sudah susah

Susah menjadi baru

Jika usang, hanya waktu yang bisa sembuhkan?

Ataukah waktu kan memperparah perihnya?

Sedangkan waktu hanyalah harapan

Terlambat? Tak terelakkan

Nona Malam

Tatkala kau puas, aku lelah

Tiap hari hanya begini saja

Apalah raga jika untuk dijajah?

Batin pun terluka parah

Orang di kampung hanya terima uang saja

Tak tahu apa yang kujual di kota

Sekalinya tentang berita

Mereka tak pernah tanya

Mulai dari atasan sampai kelas bawah

Meraba…Menjamah…Mengharapkan tuk mendesah

Desah kepura-puraan belaka

Sudah bosan aku pastinya

Dengan sentuhan tanpa cinta

Objection

My Lord…I object

Not that I don’t love You

But I object of my life…Pathetic

My Lord…I object

Not that I’m not afraid of You

But I object of my love…I’ve been cheated

My Lord…I object

Not that I’m here against you

But I object of my way…Intricate

I object of being me

I object of being cheated

I object of being lost

My Lord…Please help and find me

Need You

The more I shy

The more I know I’m into you

The more I try

The more I know I will lose you

The more I cry

The more I know that I need you

You Remain Gone

Everytime I find the peace

The silence makes my heart sliced

I guess the fact doesn’t fit the wish

Even after I paid the price

All will be ashamed

Cos you remain gone

The beast never been tamed

And my sun never been found

Here

I’m still here

After so many adventures

I’m still here

After so much following

Still…I’m here

No matter what

I’ll be here

Still be here

Cos I’m here…Always here…

I’m in Love

I’m shining

I’m smiling

I’m flying

I’m in love

I’m hoping

I’m crying

I’m dying

Of course I am, I’m in love

Pray

It couldn’t be faked

It couldn’t be changed

It only could if we try

It could be shiny

It could be teary

As way as Lord wanted me

There’s no protest about it

Cos I have to face it

And walk in the way of it

Maybe only little tears on it

But I have to erase it

As well as I erased my pain

So I can still be tall

To stand up against the wall

And do the thing that I shall

Without any help that I should call

Cos every of God’s want

Always keeps message to found

And makes us realize about the sound

That surrounds us to make an account

No One but You

And when I fall

I want no one to help me
I want no one to save me
but you

And when I lost
I want no one to find me
I want no one to guide me
but you

And when I’m broken
I want no one to heal me
I want no one to hug me
but you

Dream

Sometimes I’m afraid to dream about somethings

I just can’t bear it if I fell off that dream

I feel numb to hear that reality stings

Afraid of failure that’s what I seem

I may dream too high, I just cannot fall too deep

Once I’ve dreamt about star

But I didn’t catch that dream just in time

It left me a scar

Just like stuck in a crime

And sadness won’t be so far

Broken Wings

From what I have and feel, I know you love me still

But from what I hear and see, you’re not here with me

You’ve broken my wings!

If my wings have to be broken, I’ll take it without any offer

I won’t let go of them, cos I want to live with them

Until It’s over!

I don’t want to burn my own wings of love with a false feeling

Eventhough I can not have you, maybe I could still be dreaming

That someday…

I could give my own heart a special part of yours without anything for turning

I’m Not that Strong

My Lord…

Where do I find a sacred love?

My Lord…

Where do I search this secret heart?

My Lord…

Am I wrong to demand You?

Am I wrong to demand a great soul to be loved?

Am I wrong to let go my heart to be torched?

Cos I’m not that strong to let go my own heart

Am I wrong to blame You?

Cos I’m not strong enough to go on

My Lord…

Why you give me love, if it just to be let go?

Your Magic

I’m trapped in a multisource of desire

When I’m with you

It’s like you set me on fire

When I see you

Is it horrible how people could get naughty?

I don’t think they agree when they ever saw you

Is it horrible how people could show feelings freely?

Cos I must say that your magic is true

And I believe they will understand when they meet you

Another Day, Another Way

Another day has left me behind

I could even see my darkness

The same thing is only the sun

I wonder why I always in sadness

This is my tears that coming

I’m full of cries

My spirit is never rising

It dried by the lies

Another task another try

Another fault another sin

Another day another way

Let it be noted,

That another day means another way

Even with the same sin, same thought and same fault

My Everything

My everythings say that you are the one

My body needs you
My heart loves you
My mind wants you
My soul feels you

But Yours

(2008)

When my memory seems too burdened

I’ll sweep all of my remembrances

But yours

Hugging You

Don't have to see the face
Don't need to hear the voice
From the hug you'll know it's me

My face will be aged
My voice could be gone
But it would still be me hugging you

Living Every Moment

(04/01/09)

What was yesterday if you don’t have today?

What be tomorrow if you didn’t have yesterday?

Live life wholly…

Present is lovely!

What would be next if you can’t feel now?

What should be now if you couldn’t pass the last?

Feel every single moment

In patient yet passionate

Because success is to fall in fail

And fail is to crawl to success

Living life fully is the key

Where Are You Now?

(29/10/08)

I used to hang around with you

Right here, over there, everywhere

We used to giggle over our stupidities

Right here, over there, everywhere

Where are you now?

I’m sure I have a right to ask

Missing

(29/10/08)

I have once been told

That life contains of many stories

And I guess you knew it surely

That…

Some parts of mine are gone with the vanished you

I’ve Never Been in Love

(16/10/08)

So many questions harshing my mind

Where, when, who, how and why

Completely losing my sanity

Was answering myself then, NOT YET!

So many peoples kept chasing me

Where, when, who, how and why

Completely making me ill

Was yelling then, NOT YET!

Now…

If I could only beg one thing

Where, when, who, how and why

Completely God, I’m only nothing

So please, make thos NOT YET become YET

Because I like him now

Think About You

(16/10/08)

I can’t scratch my pen

I’m busy thinking…

I don’t want to write anything

I just want to think

Think about you…

Rejected

(16/10/08)

You cutting me slowly

Why don’t you just stab me precisely?

You’re killing me gently

Why don’t you just shot me accurately?

You annihilate me with your rejection

What a massive explosion you gave me

Wracking thousand pieces of my heart

I’m trembling with tears, you see!

You torture me when we’re apart

Hurt

(16/10/08)

I’ve conquered my own soul

It searched for you long time before

I’ve conquered my feelings

They long for you as always

I could never resist you lover, I admit!

But I will shut the door, I commit!

Hurts as always, to have you

I should let you go…

Spirit

(16/10/08)

What is it in the air?

Everything seems like, PERFECT

This soft breeze waving my hair

Opening my mind to feel like, I CAN MAKE IT

I am me

I’m here and I’m SOLID

My heels tapping on the wet ground

“Tap…tap…tap,” So beautiful in such of this solely

I know I’m PRO right now

I’m tapping on my spirit

Encourage it on fire

Hello world, I’m PRO from now!

Feeling

(16/10/08)

This feeling surrounds me

Makes me hear symphony

Makes me see beauty in me

Makes me touch honesty

Makes me feel free

This feeling surrounds me

Would give me a crown

Would show me the one

Would send him in town

Wouldn’t let me down

This feeling surrounds me

Do not know what to expect

Do not know what I protect

All I know…I got everything I want to get

This feeling surrounds me

I don’t know what to explain

When he’s here I have no pain

When he smiles, I feel no drained

Blood rushing my heart and vein

This feeling surrounds me

Want me to hug him

Want me to kiss him

Want me to want him

This feeling surrounds me

Could it be love?

Sebuah Kesimpulan

(18/08/08)

Seorang gadis bertanya pada ibunya,
"Mengapa Ibu menangis saat ayah menyentuh pipi ibu?"
Sang Ibu menjawab
"Ibu terharu dibelai oleh ayahmu."
Sang anak bingung
"Dibelai sampai menangis?"
Sang Ibu meralat
"Belaiannya terlalu besar, Nak!"
Selang beberapa, sang gadis kembali bertanya
"Ayah sangat kasar! Ibu temanku tidak menangis saat dibelai ayahnya."
Sang Ibu menjawab
"Ayah tidak kasar, hanya tegas!"

Rotten Smile

(18/08/08)

I was having my walk today
Watching over the beautiful park
Sweeping the landscape of clay
With my eyes then I saw you there
Giving me your rotten smile

I always imagine someone else
Hugging me, smiling at me
Neither you nor your rotten smile
The hard reality couldn't even recount my pain

I'm stuck with you
Your rotten smile haunts me down
ever you realize that you are rotten to me?

Why?

(07/10/2008)

If love could only be a word to say

Then why you loved me once?

If you loved me as you said

Then why you left?

If you wanted me as you said

Then why you were away?

If love could only be a dream to have

Then why you are here now?

If love could only just confuse me

Then why I know I want you for sure?

If love could only be a game to play

Then why I know it’s real this whole time?

Why? So many why…

Too many whys!

Tidak Berminat

(08/08/08)

Apa yang bisa kuharap darimu?

Semisal aku butuh belaian, mampukah kau memberinya?

Saat kubutuh pelukan, maukah kau mewujudkannya?

Tanda tanya besar wahai lelaki!

Jangan menuduhku, lelaki!

Aku tidak berminat padamu, itu saja sudah!

Karena kau terlalu biasa

Kau tak mampu menggoncang hatiku dengan sentuhanmu

Kau tak mampu menimbulkan gugup dihatiku

Kau hanya…KAU, dimataku!

Tidak lebih

Aku tidak berminat! Itu saja sudah

Tersiksa

(08/08/08)

Saat tatap mata lembutnya memandangku

Aku terbakar cinta

Melihatnya menyunggingkan senyum

Seketika aku terhempas cinta

Kecup lembut bibirnya membuatku terkapar

Karena cinta

Terlalu indah saat disisinya

Sampai kurasa disiksa

Aku takut kehilangannya

Sampai kurasa merana

Cinta menguasaiku!

Sejak Kapan

(08/08/08)

Sejak kapan cinta butuh harta?

Sejak kapan cinta memandang status sosial?

Bukankah aku dan kamu saja sudah saling melengkapi?

Cinta!

Kala aku menantimu selalu saja ada penghalang,

Kali ini Ia bernama DENDAM

All Me for You

(30-07-07)

If only I could say that I was born for you

If only I could say that I’m in love with you

Never care of what I’ve said this feeling is all I know

No matter what kind of destiny we’re into

No matter what kind of fate lead us to

I will always there for you…wanting you

And in this moment that I will sacrifice

In this moment that I will give all up

Myself to you…myself to you

These eyes want your deep stare

These hands want your sweet care

These lips want tender kiss

This heart loaded with miss

Baby, you all I need

Baby, I’m all you need

No matter what kind of tale we’re into

No matter what kind of scene lead us to

I will always feel for you…loving you

And in this moment that I will magnify

In this moment that I will dignify

My love for you…

All me for you

Dead - Translation of Tanpa Judul (Mati)

Dead

It was still early really

He dreamed to die already

All is only the pretence of happy

Inside, only misery

If death is what he aim to

Then let him have it, though

It will be his first wish ever comes true 

Deserted - Translation of SEPI

Wake me up when the twilight has left
When everyone fallen in sleeps
And the world in resting

So I can aside for awhile
Aside how muted I am in crowd
Aside how useless my existence between lives

Amongst

Amongst

(30/05/2011)

Dear dearest amongst other dearests,

Amongst thousands of thousands stars

You’re the first and brightest of other brightests  

Amongst the bravest of bravest hearts

Yours not only kindest but also flawless

(Inspired by Damian Lewis actings in Band of Brothers)

He

(14/10/2008)

His stare was stark

We'd never know what behind his eyes

We'd never know what in his deepest mind

He looked up,

His tears fell down

The red rose tattoo in his right arm

With the scorpion one in his left could not cover his downfall feelings

We know he's tired

We can see it from his eyes

He used to be tough, he used to be strong

Now,

He fades his spirit away

Just don't give, you can't give up

Father!

My In-Law

(19/05/2011)

He roles like baby

Playing hearts like he's ready

To lose his deary

Your bro not that boy

Played with my heart like it's toy

You're a pain, he's a joy

My brother-in-law

If no heart wants you, then how?

Grow up will you now!

Crashed Bash

Crashed crush
Missed bash

The Life

Our cries are their way

Our laughs cause their sad

Are we going to stay?

I think they'll never mind about that

From night until day

But we still stuck in the same raid

All of precious ways turn to grey

They have no heart to be laid

While they're enjoying their singings

Our breakfast done at supper

They may have strength with things

But we're stronger by suffer

But what they got is illusion

By the time they're in our position

Since people have their own portion

Sadly,

There will be no way even for regression

Cos will be too late for asking remission

Wishing in Sizzling and Crying in Howling

A pretty Fox regaining her strength in cold

She lies on a trunk in moss and mold

She turns her head, looking for someone to hold

But she always alone, about that, she's never been told

A medium length snake discovers the rainforest

Almost a mile, he found a sparkling frog

He chases the frog and slithering to the west

He thought, "Too old for that," when froggie jumped over a log

The Fox and The Snake

They both lone and awake

See their reflection on a lake

Miserable is all they can take

"I'm alone and I'm in cold," The Fox howling

"I'm old and loathed," sizzling The Snake

They both, though, keep on going

Looking for something as their birthday cake

Tenderness is expensive

Company is rare and too provocative

As Fox seizing the night, she keeps howling

"I wish I'm not the only one to feel this hollow"

While Snake still wandering

"Would there be another with this unlucky sorrow?"

Uh-Oh

She was making love with him the other night

Without protection she felt alright

Yesterday she found herself worried instead of proud

Cos she was sure that she hasn’t got IT this month

Today doctor said, “Congratulation. You’re going to be a mom.”

“Uh-Oh”, that’s all she could say

Realized that she’s only sixteenth just today!

Body and Soul Amendment

(04may2011)

For the deep inhales are for the fresh air
I put my flab in flare
By stretch, stand, and lay
The exhales scared the negatives away
My soul soon be healed I know
As I stiffen my muscles and bow
The beautify of silence is the best rhyme
Along with the body that sings in time
Yoga is what my advertisement
Of health in and on mind amendment


"This poetry made for contest in YOGA theme."

RICH

Don't have money
Nothing mine's fancy
But I'm still richie
Cos I got honey

I'm not weary
I'm not angry
Just very happy
Cos I got sweetie

I know how love could kill me
Life and love, they both tricky
but they can't make me blurry
Cos I got you, to be called baby